Diary of a Spirit Talker

Tues

2011-07-05T12:55:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

Wow, I can't believe it has been a whole three months since I last wrote. Quite a lot has been going on around here.

I would like to document that the last week of May I was on my way to falling asleep when a woman said to me, " I have been missing for 12 years." Then followed up with images of water. It was very deep water and she was showing me the ocean. I remember waking up and shaking my head wondering if that was all I was going to get before laying back down. Nothing came and soon I was asleep.

The next morning at breakfast my daughter told me about her dream of a women who had come to talk to her and it had something to do with water. We compared notes and decided we had talked to the same women but neither of us got anything more. All I can remember is that it seemed like it was around the date that she was missing.

Thurs

2011-04-07T06:25:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

Well, it seems that just when I turn another corner and think I know what is on the other side I get another wonderful surprise. One of my goals in this lifetime is to learn how to connect mind, body and spirit so that I can navigate with a little more ease.

It seems that a lot has been coming through in my twilight and in dream time bringing together the lessons that I learn in this life and how they connect to the growth of my soul. I love learning from my teachers on the other side as they teach with movies and sound showing me the lessons and explaining how things work. It is such a beautiful experience.

I am still seeing the white mist move through the house or right in front of me when I am sitting at the computer. And yes, it is in brad daylight. I don't have to have the lights off to see, hear and feel..

In the last few months I have been working with two organisations and still seeing my clients the Fort Worth "Acupuncture Wellness Community Clinic" a couple of days during the week.

Still no contact with my father and grandmother but my Mom has assured me that they are with her in CA. I am happy that they were with me as I needed them in my time of transition this last year. I must say that I never would have planned my life this way but I am very happy with the way it is.

The week has been tremendous with old friends calling and wanting to catch up all week. I must admit that I am enjoying catching up. So many things happening for the greater good.

Mon

2011-03-28T08:45:00.001-07:00

Dear Diary,

I was in an a amazing Acutonics level 1class for the last three days. It was about using tuning forks that are in calibration with the vibration of the planets on the acupuncture points on the body. Amazing work and a lot to learn in a three day course taught by Pam Durham.

I was awakened on Saturday morning at 4am and had this humming in my ears. I have had it before and am getting used to it. It also seems that a lot of my friends seem to hear it but it was when I was in class that morning and I complained of being tired that someone else also said that they were awake at 4am with the same hum. I realized I was not the only one awake at that early hour. Our Teacher Pam asked us if it sounded like this as she struck the chimes that are also calibrated to the planets. We went through a serious of sounds until we both in unison said, "Yes.... That one!"

Hmmm... She said,"that is the one that makes the same sound and vibration of the planet Venus". Then it dawned on me that I had watched a program of the Mayan Calendar on TV on Thursday and it talked about how the Mayans used the planet Venus to make all their astrological charts because it was the planet that they could see the best.

Pam then said that the energy that has recently come upon our planet Earth is the Heart energy that is ruled by Venus. This energy is raising the vibration of the earth at this time to the next dimension and it is all about connection and clearing the energy of the heart Chakra.

It wasn't until last night when I was closing my Akachic records down on the ride home I got a flash... It was the planet Venus, Mayan, heart attacks, Strokes and lots of clearing relationships that need to be let go. Anything that has to do with clearing out this energy that is stuck in the heart Chakra is going to be moving out weather we are ready or not.

This is also a time that we are reminded that any stuck negative energy can manifest in the body as an illness. This energy is driving people to move in clearing out old energy patterns that are no longer useful so that they can move on to a higher consciousness that will bring about a growth on a Spiritual level.

The resistance to this energy can cause major illness or even death. This means that we are all cleaning out our closets to move on to acclimating to the next level of energy consciousness that is penetrating the earth in moving everything to the next dimension.

What is it all about? It is about learning how to let go of things that no longer suit us so that we can move out the negative things that hold us captive and bring in more positive things in our lives for that growth to occur. Think about it... When we make that change we open up to a life that opens our hearts to unconditional love.... Wow!

When we move past our own fears we change everything!

Sun

2011-03-20T15:17:00.001-07:00

What is it like to feel your spirit? It is amazing! I have had the opportunity on several occasions to feel what it is like to be in the spirit energy and yes it was by accident.

Once when I was 18 and was afraid when I was on a plane in Jamaica that was about to take off and I heard very clearly, " Ana, this is what it feels like when you die so you wont be afraid when it is your time". With that I felt like someone placed a warm tingly blanket over me and this massive amounts of unconditional love move all through my body and out through the pours of my skin.

It all happened so quickly that there was no chance to question and it felt like nothing on this earth to be connected to that massive amount of love. Then as quickly it went away and I sat there in bliss through the whole flight.....

It happened again when I was knitting in my living room and then realized that I was several feet above my body in this massive amount of love... There were other times that it happened when I was very sick but the last time I was doing a relaxing meditation and found myself exiting out of my heart Chakra. It was then when I had made an amazing discovery that it feels really good to be in spirit energy and that it lives on without the body.

I was talking to someone who had recently lost someone and was trying to explain why I have come to feel the way I do about the transition soul makes in death. And then I realized that it was because of the many times I left my body in full consciousness and experienced what it is like to be in that energy form.

I am not saying that death is so much better as I believe that life is an education and a beautiful reward. I know in my own heart that life is the true test and growth of the soul. But it is also a wonderful gift when we remember who we really are which is completely unconditional Love.

Fri

2011-03-18T06:04:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

Wow, this morning I was working in the house and unloading dishes around 8am from the dishwasher when I looked up to some lady peaking around the corner looking at me. I stopped in my tracks watching her watching me work when she desolved in thin air.

It was not more then ten minutes later that I was in the bathroom hanging a bath towel up when I noticed someone walking past the doorway to the bedroom. I caught sight of the arm and the hand and the side of the body walking past. She seems to be a little younger than me in her mid thirties. Not sure why she is so bold to show herself like that in full view. She looks like a hologram so it is a little startling. I know there is no one else in the house and the kids are still asleep in their beds.

Something else I noticed is that my father has not been coming around as much as he used to. He has been with me for the past two years but in the last month I have been feeling a since of him leaving. I seem to have this knowing in my heart that he is leaving and will not come back to visit as much. He is moving on with his own soul evolution on the other side and letting go of much in this lifetime. It is done what he needed to do on this earth.

I am glad that he was with me to help me get though my own grief and move on with my life with an understanding of being comfortable with the transition we all make when we leave our bodies.

Wed

2011-03-09T12:57:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

I don't even know where to begin. I have been having a lot going on in the physical world but also in the spirit world to. Last night I was out with my husband and a dear friend and her little grandson watching him play when one of his past lives flashed before my eyes. It is like watching a full movie and I caught myself looking at the top of his head and out past his physical body seeing the beautiful white light that was stuffed into this tiny body.

Wow, such a huge soul in a little body and far way form the time, place and activities of the other life. Later that evening I asked my guides in twilight about the little boy and they shared a little to share with my friend that would help him.

This morning I was busy working when I received a phone call from my friend. We chatted and after awhile she asked what I saw. It took me a minute to remember and then it came flooding back... I told her what I saw and shred what the guide had told me which she thanked me for. As I sat there thinking about our conversation I realized that this happens all the time but I don't speak up and share what I get or see. I just file it away or forget. Something I need to work on..

Sun

2011-03-06T07:36:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

Yesterday I heard a sizzle as I reached for the Chi to style my hair. My thumb had touched the hot part of the Chi and I dropped it. As the pain of the burn raced through my body telling me that something had happened I heard "Quick go get the Lavender Oil!"

I rushed over to where I keep the oils and quickly dowsed my thumb with Lavender and told myself that I did not burn myself. This is an old trick my father used to try to teach me to fool the body and heal quicker... Within minutes the pain went from a throb to a light feeling of pain. Thirty minutes later there was no sign of pain and today as I examine my thumb there is no sign of the burn.

Last night was one of my veggie nights on the couch in the living room. As I sat there watching an old movie. I noticed some white smoke moving across the living room. I really didn't think anything about it except that I had the feeling of getting up and going to work. When my brain kicked in I realized that I had some free time to myself and that did not make since at the time and I dismissed it.

Later on I had these memories of this wood framed house and the rooms that were in it. I was all into it until my brain kicked in and said, "wait a minute! I have never been in a house like that!" I dismissed it and continued my movie, when I had the urge to go into the kitchen as my dinner was waiting for me which was a French fish dish. I started to move when I realized that no one was in the kitchen I had no clue what the dish was? "OH!" I had someone in the room with me sharing some of their memories with me!"

I told my husband what had happened and if something happened then he would know what was going on. Nothing else happened until this morning when I was having my tea with my husband in the living room and my eyes got this misty cloudy white smoke in them and everything looked fuzzy... "No", I am not doing that", I said and I got up and decided to write in my diary...

Wed

2011-03-02T06:55:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

I seem to be watching a lot of shifting going on around me. As I watch I also am experiencing my own shift within. It seems that so many are moving through old baggage that they thought was long gone only to find it hitting them in the face as the cells of the body are still holding on to old patterns.

For many it is a wake up call as these mental emotions manifests in their physical being bringing on health issues that bubble up to the surface. I am watching as people are looking at what needs to be changed in their lives and some are letting go with instant results as other struggle with the mere fact letting go of it.

As I watch people struggle and I examine my own life I see that just wanting to let go of something is not as easy as it might seem. It is a release that you know for sure that a much higher power is going to catch you and so much boils down to the simple truth of "Trust".

It is what is on the other side that many of us forget and that is the an amazing amount of unconditional love and no fear in the past, present and future. I often find my thoughts moving over a situation that I had no control of or something that I wish had not happened but when I am aware of these thoughts and the emotions that stir within my own body I acknowledge it as a experiences and let the thought drift away with the emotions that were attached only to later recall it without the strong emotions.

I am not saying that if there was a lesson that I didn't remember it. I am saying that it was remembered without the judgement and the note not to do that again. Kind of like touching a hot stove....This allowed me to stop punishing myself and others because of a past experience. Forgiveness + letting go= Love & Healing of the soul!

Fri

2011-02-25T18:53:00.000-08:00

A few days ago I had this feeling of extreme sadness that overwhelmed me and stopped me in my tracks. What ever I did I could not shake this feeling of loss. I called my Mom on the phone the next morning and she confessed that she was also experiencing this feeling of great sadness. I hung up with her and tried to give it no thought as I went about my day but it kept coming back.

It was a few hours later that it came in very loud and clear... Two years ago my father passed away. I had completely forgotten since I have a close connection with him on this side. But somehow my body had remembered the grief that I experienced that week of his death when I had no connection during his transition in the after life. So when the time frame came back around my body replayed those old emotions like an alarm clock. When I realized where the sadness was coming from I called Mom..

Once we both were able to link the sadness and the deep feeling of loss to his death it broke the sadness that we both carried in our hearts. We told my Dad that we were happy that he was watching over us. Both of us were able to move on with our day without any pain of loss in our hearts after we talked... In the end it turned out to be a lovely experience and I was blessed to be able to share with my parents one on this side and one on the other side...

Thursday

2011-02-17T13:35:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was amazing, as I got to work with someone and do a Reiki attunement. Later I got to work with some of my friends doing a Blessing. The amount of energy that ran through my body seemed to clear anything that had been stuck in the last week. I loved it as I woke up this morning very clear in my thoughts and nothing left on my heart. It was like waking up new!

When you run energy through your energy centers located in your body it helps clean out a lot of baggage that can cause you to get stuck or may manifest in the body a physical illness. It is kind of like getting an oil change in your car only it relines the mind with the body and the body with the spirit. When this is in line you are able to feel more present in the moment... Lovely!

Monday night when I was in the bathroom taking a bath I noticed these green, yellow and purple colors in a misty state trying to take shape in the door way. I watched it for sometime trying to make it out. It finely vanished but I kept my eye on the door way thinking I would see something but to my disappointment it didn't come back.

Last night on my way to bed I walked through someone standing in my room on my side of the bed. It is funny that I see them but by the time I realize what it is I am already moving out the other side. Then my brain comes on saying,"You just passed through someone!".... I know!!!

Sunday

2011-02-13T14:59:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

Well you can't imagine what has been going on.. This week there has been a lot to process. Our groups are growing and doing well. I love the beautiful people who come into my life and share their talents and gifts. And even though we have had a lot of ice and snow for our Texas region I was still able to keep in touch.

Last night was a little strange.. I dreamed of my father and he seemed to have a message for me. I woke up with my heart pounding in my chest and realized that it was dreaming. I allowed myself to center and move the pounding from my heart to move out of my body. I went back to sleep with the same message playing over and over.

I must say I did not like what I was getting so when my husband woke up I played it by him. He was very clear on what I was getting and I knew he was right. I needed to rethink some things and take care of some things in my life or my life would be a little more difficult. Nothing big but a good lesson for me to learn. I learned in the past when I didn't listen I would always get burned so to speak.

I was coming up to make some choices and it seems that my father had some idea of my past habits and knew that I needed to focus on a few things in my own life. It felt good that my father on the other side was helping and my husband on this side was supporting me. Now all I need to do is grow in the loving space that they held for me as they cheered me on.

Sat

2011-02-05T06:25:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

It has been a little strange around the house. My family and I were snowed in a few days this week and so we watched a few movies on the TV. Yesterday as we settled in and I was sipping my hot tea when a huge blob of white smoke moved through me and past me as I sat in my favourite chair. I told my family that someone had just passed through me but I did think it was strange that they deliberately did it.

The night before I was taking a bath and again this same white smoke which is different from steam because it has the white color lifted off of me and moved to the ceiling. Nice I thought.... How long has that been attached to me? With the energy shifting it seems that they are getting a lot more bolder. I have been really busy with working on the new Wellness Community to pay the attention I need to.

Just a note... It is like telling the difference between smoke from fire and steam it is different when it is a ghost....and you know the difference it is not the same.. if that helps?

Twilighting in the morning is still happening and I am really grateful to have that insight and thoughts on things that I need to work on in my own life. At this time there is lots of releasing of old thinking, patterns and energy. The new energy is amazing as it clears the way for new things to open up in our lives...

Thurs

2011-02-03T06:20:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

I have noticed that in the last three days since we have been having our ice storm I have felt these waves of energy moving through my whole body. At around 2pm I can hardly keep my eyes open and have to lay down and take a nap. It is during this that I feel this wave of electrical current move down through my crown and all through my chakras.

It is not painful but quite pleasant and with it has a rocking sensation like floating on a wave pool. I noticed that I am out for about 20 minutes and then wake up feeling refreshed. This has also been happening when I am drifting off to sleep at night and I can't help but surrender to the motion and lovely sensation pulsing all through my body.

Last night I had wanted to wait for my son to come in who was studying with a study group and so I kept fighting to stay awake but the wave kept trying to take me off. Finely my husband came in from being out with friends and said he would wait up and I allowed myself to drift off in the motion.

Tuesday night a dear friend called and said that she had heard that we were going through a transition with the last eclipse and equinox. She said that on this time around the first of February there is a celebration called 'Candlemas. I wonder if this energy has anything to do with that as it was about the time that this sensation of energy started to happen. I had something like this happen around 2007 when I started to wake up and see....

Mon

2011-01-31T05:24:00.000-08:00

Friday, a dear friend and I made a trek up to Dallas to see a Medium whom I had heard about. I wanted to meet her and learn more about her gifts. The best way to learn is to meet cold and have a reading.

We arrived early at the location where she worked and sat down to wait for her to show up. We saw her arrive and waved as she was very sociable sitting down to do the reading. She immediately started to draw and write on several sheets of paper as she talked to the spirits that came to chat.

What was fun was that she picked up right away on my Grandmother and Father who hang out a lot with me and my family. I know that they have crossed but they check on us from time to time leaving us signs that they have been by. I am guessing that I need all the help I can get in this life time and happy when they stop by.

Since I did not know this lovely lady from Adam she had no way of knowing about them. I loved that my Dad was happy to chime right in and talk about some of the things that I was worrying about and letting me know that it was OK. Because he comes to visit I knew that he had been trying to let me know that I was moving through some of the life lessons that needed to be experienced but it was fun to have another to validate what I knew and so right on the mark.

But the real kicker was when she drew a picture that was on the wall next to my bed and said that I kept looking at that thinking that I want to be like that. The truth is that when things get to be really busy in our lives that we don't have a moment to ourselves I do look at the painting of a sail boat that my father painted and dream of sailing off around the world getting some R&R. It is just a little dream of mine that not even my husband knows about except me and the spirit world.

I really enjoyed talking to her as she was the real deal and I have heard that celebrities will fly out to talk to her. My friend was also impressed and we both went away talking about our experience. I hope that we will get to meet up with her again but for now it is nice to know that she is right here close by.....

Thursday

2011-01-27T06:17:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

I must say that last Sat when I awoke and sat up in bed I saw a white smoke move across the room. The same happened Sunday morning. I thought it was Odd but did not think much about it. It was not until after the meeting on Monday night with the new circle that I realized that something had changed and so many flashes and smoke seemed to move around the house. Nothing threatening but I was aware that my energy had moved to a higher level and I was more aware of the activity.

Yesterday was amazing I had morning tea with a dear friend and we had a wonderful conversation about the up coming Circle and how it is forming. As I was leaving to have lunch in Arlington we both saw a penny laying on the floor. She stooped and picked it up handing it to me and I of course said, Thank you Dad" knowing that he was hanging close by as we visited.

So much happening yesterday as I was talking to some really light filled people. I must admit that I had a hard time calming my own energy down before dropping off to sleep but when it did it came swift. I found myself dreaming of going to school listening to a lecture, busy taking notes and getting ready to be tested.

Fri

2011-01-21T08:56:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

A few weeks ago my daughter called me from school to tell me about a dream and her experiences that she was having at her dorm. As she started to tell me about what happened I could see a cloud of smoke move across the ceiling and I caught the shadow of someone walking past the door to another room.

Hmmmm... I agreed as I listen on the phone about her description of the things that were happening. Her concern when she called was that the ghost had communicated in a dream that they were going to pay me a visit. I told her that it looked like I had someone already paying me a visit but thanks for the warning.

I have to say that I have not had any other contact with the ghost but I am wondering that it may be that I have been so occupied with learning about a new modality so my complete attention has been focused on that. I am thinking as I write this that I need to pay a little attention to the poor ghost that came as they seem to need help.

My daughter had explained that they were looking for someone and that I might be able to help them find them so that they can cross to the other side.

Fri

2011-01-13T18:58:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

Today was a lovely day getting together with friends that I have not seen in awhile. It was when I returned home after enjoying nice visit for lunch that I received a phone call from another friend who said I needed to stop at Half Priced books and pick up a copy of the "The Physics of Miracles" by Richard Bartlett, DC, ND. They said that they were there and picked up a copy and there was one book left.

Since I had not had a chance to visit with my husband I asked if he would drive me across town to pick it up. We got there and I walked to the back of the store to the section that my friend said it was in only to run into another person that I know who was working there.

He smiled at me and said that he had been waiting for me. It took me by surprise and I asked him how so? "Oh", he said, " I had a dream about you last night and you came into the store and walked straight to the back to this section and was going to tell me something." Smiling, I said that I was looking for a book and that a lot of my friends were talking about it. I told him that many of my friends had taken a seminar but the book had a lot of the information that was taught in the class.

We searched and found it but to my surprise there were two books instead of only one. I laughed and told him my friend said that there was only one copy left. He picked it up and opened it up. The Chapter that he opened to was called, "Trust What Ever Shows Up in the Moment". "Hmmm....., he said " I think this other copy was meant for me".

We said goodby and I want on my way and he went on his. Did I meantion that I had not seen him in at least 6 or 7 months since it had been awhile that I had been in that store location?

Wed

2011-01-12T09:44:00.000-08:00

Wow, Diary a whole week has passed and I can"t tell you how busy I have been. It is amazing working in both worlds and finding others so much like you. So much happening....

Monday I was in an evening meeting and had received a message to share with our Wellness Community that morning in Twilight. As I was telling the group what I got another person across the room raised her hand and had received the same message. She completed what I had left out but the message was the same. But here is what makes it unique... It was exactly the same story word for word....

Another day I was working with a client with Reiki and was leaving the session. As I walked out of the room. I thought of someone and in an instant I felt like that person was there with me. It was so strong and I had forgotten what that persons essence felt like. I knew almost immediately that that person was thinking about me to.

You get this when you are in a room and have your back turned away from the door and someone you know walks in and you know who it is.... That is how I would describe it. I had lunch with a friend later that day who I shared the experience with and they knew who I was talking about which they knew that that person was thousands of miles away on a trip that week... It was fun to know when others are thinking about you to even far away...

Tonight we are starting a serious called "Healing Lost Souls" by William J. Baldwin, PH.D. It will be amazing as we get to learn more about energy and how to release spirits who are trapped in between worlds in more in-depth study....

Wed

2011-01-05T13:39:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

I was awakened in the middle of the night and turned over listening to my husband snore. It was then that I heard someone say close to my ear, "good night". It was a male's voice and the thought came, Oh how sweet that Steve told me good night. As I lay there feeling good about it I realized that he was still snoring and facing the other direction.

Hmmmm...... If he was asleep and no one was awake except me.... Then who said Good night? I took just a second to realize that it was my guide. "Good night", I said and turned over trying for sometime to go back to sleep.

Mon

2011-01-03T18:22:00.000-08:00

Today I woke up in a mood and was unable to get out of it. I was irritated at every little thing and tried to stay away from others who would cross my path and in my range of irritation. I tried to shake it into the earth. I even washed myself in the light and sunshine but to no avail.

Now, you think it is bad being around a person in a bad mood but try being the person stuck in that energy form. I even told my husband that my bones had anger in them. Kind of like having the ache in the bones from the flu. It was then when I was describing my symptoms that it downed on me that the emotion was caught in my body was not mine.

With this single thought it came to me that that I had spent most of the day trying to find what was causing me to be so angry. I just woke up like that. They call it, "waking up on the wrong side of the bed" or in my line of work a "spirit attachment". Oh!!!!

So the next action was to sit quietly and ask myself if I was OK. The answer was "yes" as I accessed my energy field and looked for any trace of a foreign energy within my body. There it was and it was not happy that I found it. Smiling, to myself I asked it what it wanted and it did not respond. Mmmmmm.... this may take some work but was guided immediately to do a release prayer that I was taught in my Akashic training.

As I started to say the prayer I heard someone say, "it is me and I choose not to leave." With this statement it confirmed that I had picked up a spirit attachment. I then said the prayer asking God to remove and release this being into His care. As I repeated the prayer the third time I felt a release and that feeling of stepping into a soothing bath as the emotions of anger dropped away and a feeling of peace and lightness took over knowing that it was gone.

I checked once again in my body and energy field to see if anything was still there.. Nothing, it was gone and I spent the rest of the afternoon without any interference of irritation or anger. Nice to be back to myself. Where ever I was in my dreams last night I must have brought home a visitor. Next time I will have to be more careful not to talk to strangers...

Fri

2010-12-31T07:33:00.001-08:00

This morning I got up and visited with my husband drinking my cup of hot tea and just enjoying the morning. We sat in bed and he began to work on his laptop and I decided to watch a little TV and enjoy the rest of my tea and found a movie that I had been trying to finish this whole holiday season called "Love Happens"

I got in on the last 10 min which is where I left off a few days ago. What was interesting is that it is about a Grief speaker helping people and it was ending with him discovering something in himself. What touched me was the relationship between him and his father in law. Just before I noticed my eyes were wet and my heart opened up to the touching scene and this warm energy shot through the core of my being with this amazing feeling of it moving out through my skin.

The emotion was so beautiful and the heat that moved through my body and out into my outer energy field was loving and healing at the same time. I took a moment to stop and be aware of what was happening to me. This is something we all experience but mostly we are unaware as our emotions are so powerful that they move outside of ourselves and effect others.

Smiling to myself I felt good about how we all feel when we hear music, watch a move or experience a piece of art. It is powerful as it moves the energy around us and brings it alive.... Now the trick is to be able to focus all of that powerful energy in a loving and healing way toward others to help bring healing in our world...... The connection is through the heart!

Wed

2010-12-20T20:15:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

I am finding that I am learning a lot when I am working in my dreams. I do have to ask for information just before sleeping and then I get the answer either in my dream or when I wake up. Lately I have been busy with family during this holiday season. It has been a joyous occasion with everyone in town.

I am finding a lot of pennies today and feel like my dad is close by watching all that is going on. The other night was the eclipse and I was planning to sleep through it unless I awoke and then I would go outside to see it. Sure enough the eclipse started at 2:30am our time and my dream ended and I woke up at 2:40am. I did not want to get out of bed but I kept hearing that I needed to see this and it would be quick.

I drug myself out of bed and asked my husband if he would like to see it to. He did and so did our daughter who was visiting for Christmas. Wow.... it was worth it and I am glad that I woke up to see it. My son slept through it as he told us to go away....

Talking to my friends they were woken up around the same time and they also decided to go out and look at it. Something going on?

Sat

2010-12-19T09:14:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

I can't believe it has been a full week since I last wrote. I have been dreaming again this week. This last dream was about me getting away from things and walking by a lake with lots of people around. I don't remember exactly where it was but I saw some shops and went in one to look around. The lady who greeted me I knew her from another dream that I had and we talked about he store which had an unusual name called the "Buddha's Thumb".

I remember talking to her and discussing about the last time I met her in another dream. She laughed and we went on to talk. That morning when I awoke I told my husband about the dream and described her long gray hair and facial features. The dream was so vivid that I thought it would have be nice to meet someone like her in my waking world.

Later in the day I was working on some beading projects and ran out of the findings to finish the pieces that I was working on. I went to the "Artful Bead" in Fort Worth TX and there sitting at the table talking to some of my friends was the lady in my dream. My mouth was gapping and I babbled "I dreamed about you! What were you doing in my dreams" She replied, "Astral Projecting!" I laughed and said, "I don't know you so how could you do that"? She agreed and I sat down to visit.

She was making some beautiful purses with beading and looked like medicine bags. We talked and in the middle of one of the sentences she said, "deja Vu!" and said, Yes, I am sewing and you are working with the rocks and OH... what you just said, triggered my memory.... I dreamed about you and meeting you here and having this conversation!" "I remember now!"

I asked her about her life and our lives seem to run parallel in many ways. With Holidays coming in this next week I told her that we need to get together and talk after the holidays and families return home. We have much to discuss!

Fri

2010-12-10T08:37:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

I have been busy working with getting the new Healing Circles off the ground this past few weeks. I guess since I last wrote I have not experienced a whole lot since I have been so focused on the circles.

I did notice a few things however that happened a few nights ago when I was working in my records and forgot to close them. I fell asleep but before I drifted off I was wondering about my reaction to some people in my life and how that effected the way I responded to them. As I was just on the edge of sleep I began to see some past events in my life that I remembered that were really uncomfortable and I realzied it was because of this few incidents in my life that I reacted the same since.

I also recognized that I no longer believed the belief that was attached to the event and even felt like it was a lie. Someone in my dream state was showing me these events and explaining how I miss interpreted the situation since I was very young but I carried these feelings and events through my adulthood. I remembered saying, "That is why I act like that?" "That is where I got that!!" "I release this!"

It was amazing as I began to understand that it was only a belief and that I did not have to believe the things that might hurt my relationships with others in this life. Then I guess I fell asleep and when I awoke I felt a change in myself and a new feeling of letting go to some very old beliefs. It was later in the day that I realized that I had not closed the records and that the event was for my highest good. Beautiful to know that help is aways near by.

Tues

2010-11-30T06:44:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

It was strange last night as the first set of dreams were about people being executed in a war. Judging by their clothes it was in Europe in the second World War. I was upset with myself as I awoke realizing I had watched without any emotion in the dream. I got up and walked in the bathroom with the scene playing over in my mind as my heart was breaking over the people dying in the dream. What had I done yesterday to have triggered such a dream?

I climbed back into bed next to my snoring husband and went back to sleep. I had my usual dreams of traveling and adventure with no one dying or anyone being hurt. It was the cat that woke me up this morning climbing on me and purring wanting me to pet her. My husband was still sound asleep when I checked to see if he was awake.

As I was petting the cat half asleep and half awake I had this wave of energy move over me and it was so strong as I saw a young man in an old fashioned army suite standing there with an army rifle. I could feel what he was feeling and saw him in the war going into houses and killing people. I felt him being numb to the horror of all that was happening around him. Suddenly a wave shot up through by body from my lower back separating me from his numbness sending shock and sadness of the whole experience throughout my whole body as I shook myself loose from his grip.

Then it dawns on me! Oh, it's a ghost!!! The young man was sharing his story with me but why? He did not ask for help or seem to have any remorse over what had happened.

One thing you must understand is that most of the time you can tell what is yours and what is not yours by the energy shift. To better explain this it is like getting into a hot shower and then getting into a cold shower. Your body feels the difference. It is the same with energy only different. You know when you are taking a cold shower vs a hot one. Then there are times when it becomes warm as the two temperatures merge together and you get a feel for both so you must find yours. Does not last for very long but enough to get a taste of what the other feels like...

I don't know why this young man came to me and showed me a piece of his life. If I had been more on track I would have asked if he needed help to cross but was a little out of sorts from what he shared.

Tues

2010-11-29T18:30:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

I has been a fast week as the Thanksgiving Holiday was upon us. I must say that I slept very well since we crossed the man in the bedroom. I have had no nightmares since.

I did have a dream last night where I was shown a picture of a place and recognized it as a place I have visited in another dream. I woke up and could recall the dream in the picture that I had had several months before. I thought it odd to see the picture and recall it as if I had been there and then remembered all the details.... Who would have thunk?

Tues

2010-11-23T05:53:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

My poor husband has been having terrible anxiety attacks in the the middle of the night and wakes up in a sweat this past week. I finely asked my guides what to do and they told me to switch sides of the bed so they could not find him. I thought that was kind of funny but I told my husband we needed to switch sides of the bed. He agreed and so we went to sleep on the different sides.

I woke up and looked at the clock with my heart racing. It was 2AM and I was upset as my dreams in the Twilight were telling me that I was not good enough and that I could not get anything done. I was upset and arguing as I knew in my heart that was a lie and not true but the feeling of being inadequate were over whelming.

I moved through it with my own heart and was soon back to sleep resting until the early morning. The next night I kind of remembered the incident but did not really put much into it but a nightmare. Again I awoke in the middle of the night with this feeling of powerlessness and fighting with myself in my dream that I was not good enough and that what ever I touched would be doomed. I wake up and again looked at the clock realzing that it was not real as I got my barrings straight understanding I was in dream state.

I recognized that what I was experiencing was a lie but the emotions that were attached to the lie were so intense it took a few hours to move past the feelings. Last night before I went to sleep I looked at my husband and stated that we have a ghost and that I was going to put my intentions in for the night to go ghost hunting. I don't know why I said that but I felt it very strongly in my guts.

I kissed him goodnight and fell asleep not to wake up until the morning. This morning I was fine with no feelings of emotions of helplessness at all. I came into the office and opened up my diary to write when it came to me as clear as day. It was just before I left a few months ago to visit my family in NYC that I awoke and saw a man standing over my husband on his side of the be looking down at him. There was no question of who it was sharing his life experience with us and now I knew who to cross.

As it was I had to run to a Reiki appointment and did not have time to write but as I was working on my client I asked them if we could work on crossing over the ghost while we were doing Reikil. I got a yes and so we went into the field in between worlds to find the ghost. I found him and recognized him immediately. I asked him his name which he gave me and we talked about him and why he was attracted to my husband energy field. I got his story and it was very sad. I asked the 4 Arch Angels to come in and they held the light and offered to take him into the light.

He did not want to go and claimed that he was unworthy of going into the beautiful light. We talked and asked if anyone on the other side would come through. They did as he seemed to have a wife who came to call for him. He still was unsure and it took a great deal of encouragement from the other side as he slowly walked into the light with lots of love.

I have to admit it makes me cry and I thanked the angels and the other side for doing all the work. They are so amazing. I am glad that this is cleared and will be gracing in lots of good energy to replace all the sadness that left....

Sat

2010-11-20T08:35:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

It has truly been an emotional week with things happing in my personal life with the family. I can't believe how quickly time is flying by lately and yet not fast enough to move through things.

I walked into the Acupuncture Wellness Community Clinic on Thursday and saw a man standing by the window look at me walking in. I guess I must have blinked because the man was gone in an instant. I laughed to myself and realized that I had seen a ghost and thought no more about it. It was later that day that one of the teachers there was working with a class and told the class that she saw someone by the window but realized that there was no one there. I heard her a and spoke up telling her what I saw which was the same thing. You know it is always nice to hear from others that they see the same thing.

Last night I was watching a program in the living room with the kids when movement out of the corner of my eye caught something. I was right on time when I looked over to see some beige smoke moving though the doorway. Smiling to myself I knew someone was moving through....

Monday

2010-11-15T08:11:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

Saturday we had a "Chakra & Psychic Awareness" class at the "Acupuncture Wellness Community Clinic" in Fort Worth. It was just before lunch that we decideds to take a few aura pictures of some of the students. Pam the owner started with me and we discovered that there were strange smokey lights streaking across the picture. The color was in my aura and was gray which did not have a positive meaning.

Immediately, Pam said for me to clean my aura as I was picking up someone in my field and a friend handed me a black tourmaline stone to help me ground. Pam took the picture again and my aura come out red which the stone helped me to focus on grounding. We went to lunch and thought something was wrong with the camara.

After class we decide to try again and took several pictures of the students with lovely colors and bright auras. It was when they took Pam's picture that the camera picked up the same streaks and gray color in her aura that we took it over three times. The same thing happened in each picture. Then they took mine again and I had the same gray color and streaks.

We thought the camera was broken but one of the students who had some stones for cleansing in her purse said, "wait let me try to clean the camera with the stones". It worked as they took my picture again I quickly told them I was thinking of the color yellow. The camera picked up a green field all around me and in my aura field but in my heart area there was a bright yellow coming through.

Next we took a picture of Pam and her color was bright green all around her head and neck area. Lovely. It was then that we realized that the ghost that hangs out in her clinic was probably the cause of what happened with the camera. Then it all made since when I remembered that when Paula the other teacher was talking I saw a gray smoke pass in front of her. I thought about it for a second and put it away in my mind.

Of course! Ghosts love to mess with electronics. They have that ability to manipulate the energy that electronics put out. How funny! We had someone around that liked to play tricks on people. Oh well, if you are going to have a ghost then one with a since of humour is really not to bad.

Thursday

2010-11-11T18:10:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

It has been an amazing week again. I was asked by a friend to help her clear a house. She had trouble sleeping and one night saw a dark smoky shadow on the ceiling. She said that she remembered the description from our time together talking about the spirit world.

I agreed to help and set a date and time which was yesterday morning. It happened that I was visiting with a friend who is also gifted in this area and asked if she would like to help as my daughter was away at school and it would be fun to be a team. She agreed and we set it all up to meet.

As I was leaving the house yesterday I got a phone call from the friend who was going to help and her voice was strained. She had arrived and was wondering if I was on the way. I had just received a call from my other friend who was telling me that she was delayed but her boyfriend was still there. As I drove up to the house it seemed strange but I was not sure why.

My friend met me and told me that we must talk before we went in the house. She shared with me of a vision and what she saw in the house before we arrived. As we went into the house we soon discovered that there were three portals opened. We also found the dark entity that we were hunting that split into two parts as it realized what we were doing.

We began to close the portals and seal the house until we came to the last portal herding them into the last room that the portal was open with that we sealed the room and created a vortex that sucked the entities into it as the portal was closed and sealed. Then we went from room to room helping the ghost that were traped to cross. Again this is spirit rescue not banishment from the house. We talked to each of the ghosts and with the help of the Angels they each and everyone crossed. There were nine in all.

Last but not least we went through the house blessing the home. When you remove any energy form something then you always want to grace in positive energy. A hole will always fill in and so you need to make sure that it is full of Blessings or love. Again, I can't stress prayer....

It seems that not a day goes by without me walking through a ghost or a ghost passing between me and someone talking. We all just coexist on the earth.

Thursday

2010-11-04T09:09:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

It has been kind of funny that I have not heard much form my father who passed on. Pennies haven't been showing up like before and made me wondered why the change. I was on the phone with my Mom in NY and she said asked if I had seen or heard from him. "No," it had been a week since I have had the pennies show up. "Well", she said, "That's because he has been showing up around here. He has been leaving pennies here and letting me know that he is around."

"Oh, that makes a lot of since why I did not feel him around. He is busy visiting." Today, I have not noticed him around the house but the house seems to be full of others coming and going I wonder if people really know that the other side is right here.

Tues

2010-11-02T18:29:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

Yesterday was a fun day as I got to work with people in their Akashic Records. The funny thing about working in the Akashic Records is that the longer that you are in them it raises your energy vibration. This is wonderful and you seem to have this beautiful feeling of floating.

I was working late so before I drove home I grounded myself. It was when I returned home late last night from the consultation that I noticed a lot of people in the house that I could see through. I knew that we had ghost coming and going but still catches me off guard. There were so many in the house walking around paying no attention to me.

I went to bed knowing that the room was full but this morning when I awoke it seemed that the energy had tapered down a bit and I was back down to my usual earthly vib. Which meant that I still saw flashes and smoke moving in the room but not the full bodied people that I saw the night before.

"No", there is no drugs involved. It is a matter of changing the body's vibration with prayer and moving into a higher energy to read the records but the energy of that state brings the earth and spirit world together.

Sat

2010-10-30T04:44:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

I must say that it has been an amazing week. Monday I found myself complaining out loud that I did not have two pennies to rub together. As I was in my rant I picked up a folder off my desk and there underneath were two pennies. With the clear thought, "There Now You Have Two Pennies to Rub Together!" Then the joke hit me and I started to laugh!!! Only from the Spirit World knowing that they all have a healthy since of humor. I realized that I was being a bit dramatic and that they had called my bluff...

The week has been very busy with Akashic Readings and I have really enjoyed and learned a whole lot form each experience. One day this week it got to be a little hectic not with the readings but with working with the house and errands. I walked out to the car to go to the grocery store for the second time and in my car seat sitting on the driver's seat was a shiny new penny. "Thanks Dad!
I know you are watching." I took a breath and the rest of the day went smooth...

We have had flashes, smoke and movement moving through the house all week. I am realzing that tomorrow is Halloween but since we have lots of activity all year round I don't know if it gets busy around this time. I am aware that they don't seem to be as interested in what we are doing lately and go about their own business. I am thinking that they are used to seeing us and know that we see them but don't intrude unless they come to us for help. I say that but now since my daughter has left for college it is only me that seems to notice that they are around.

Lots to do this weekend with the everyone home for the weekend and Halloween. I love the costumes and candy and hope we have lots of trick or treators this year.

Mon

2010-10-25T06:16:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

So sorry, I have not written. I have been so busy with two Expos this past week and weekend. What was kind of strange is that I am thinking of spliting our Developing Circle which was created for those who are waking up to their ability of seeing and talking to ghost. I thought I could find another teacher quickly to help with creating another circle but there seems not be that many who are trained in the ability to teach how to clear and do Spirit Rescue.

I am looking in our DFW area for someone who can help work with people who have questions about their situation or their abilities and experiences. It was just something that I guess I take for granted. Anyway, I am putting my intention of finding someone to teach since I seem to have my hands full at the moment.

Last night I was talking to someone face to face and beige cloud of smoke moved between us. I noticed that the person I was talking to had not noticed that we had a visitor. The ghost was not interested in what we were talking about and moved on like passing through a crowd at a party. Funny how that happens.

So much happing all around us and most people don't seem to have any idea that the Ghosts and Spirits are all around us all the time. It is exciting when people wake up and realize that there is a whole other world around us right here.

Tuesday

2010-10-19T17:41:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

It has been a week since I last wrote.. I left last Thursday to go to NYC to visit family and only just got back late last night.

As I was sitting on the air plane to leave for NY I realized that I had not heard from my father who passed away a year and a half ago. He usually checks in with me during the week. He always leaves me a penny somewhere and I know he is around if I don't sense his presences.

I got on the plane and started to think about it and then complain that I had not heard a thing from him or even gotten my penny from him in the past few days so I had no idea where he had been. I spent at least 5 minutes complaining and we started to take off which I was distracted and thought no more of it.

It was when I got to NYC and pulled out a small bag that I had brought to give to my sister that a penny fell out and bounced on the counter in the kitchen. A penny which I knew was not there when packed my bag. All of a sudden I got the giggles and my sister told my Mom that Dad had just left a penny as I told them how upset I was with him on the plane.

My Mother thinking I was hungry took me down the block to find something to eat after my trip and I walked through someone (ghost) standing on the street. I was so distracted with the sights in the city that it took me a moment to realize what had just happened. Looking back I apologised as we walked on finding a small place to grab something to eat.. They seemed to be in a hurry to and moved on in a beige color of smoke crossing the street in a sea of people.

The next day I was walking into the living room of their apartment and passed the stairs leading to the bedrooms when I saw two people standing in the middle of the stairs watching me pass. I stoped and looked back and sure enough they were there a man and woman about middle aged just standing there. Since I could see through them there was no question. They didn't seem bothered that I could see them and so I walked on minding my own business...

I forgot about them and later on in the day I again saw them and then caught them watching only this time at the top of the stairs and I could only see their heads. This went on as I would see only a head or heads depending on who wanted to be seen at the time whenever I passed. And so the rest of my stay went like that as I never knew when I would see them or one of them or even all of them (body) on the stairs. I did not climb the stairs unless I had to. Most of the time I forgot they were there until they showed up.. After awhile you just get used to it and ignore it....

They never left the stairs and never said a thing to me. They just seemed to be watching all the going on from their point in the house. It was fine... They didn't seem to bother anyone so I left them alone and they left us alone...

The flight back was quite and no sign of ghosts as I read on the plane and talked to the women next to me. Only one time did I check in with my guides and angels. There was an electrical problem with the plane which they had to fix before we left. At one point in the flight I thought I heard something and asked and got the reply, "No, it is not your time so relax....."

Today I was visiting with my daughter on the phone and was telling her about her grandfather leaving the penny in NY when I moved a book and spotted a penny lying under it in the corner of the room. I smiled and said, "Thank you Dad!" Relating what had just happened over the phone...

Wed.

2010-10-13T15:21:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

As I was getting out of bed this morning I managed to glance over toward my husband still snoozing away. That is when I saw a man standing on his side of the bed looking down at my sleeping husband.In a flash he was gone but not before my brain could register a little of what he looked like.

When it is early in the morning like that and I am just coming out of that sleepy state it is hard to fully register what is happening in that moment. He was gone so fast for me to even freak out that someone was standing by the bed.

I could see that he was wearing blue jeans and didn't have a shirt on. I noticed that he had a nice tan but was not able to make out his facial features. What made me wonder was why was he staring down at my husband who has no since of seeing the other side except that he might have wanted to communicate with him. But Why?

As my husband woke up I told him what I saw... I asked if he could think of someone with that description who might have passed wanting to get in touch with him before moving on. I wanted to know what the man wanted. Since the man did not come to me and let me know I had no clue to who he might be.

Of course this becomes a great guessing game and the only person we could both come up with was his Uncle whom he had not seen in 20 years but that is not something we could prove since he walked away from the family and changed his name. I guess we will have to wait and see if he shows up again and lets us know what he wants.

No wonder the cat was not sleeping on the bed with us this morning. I had to search for her and she is one that loves to come and visit me when she notices that I am opening my eyes.

Tuesday

2010-10-12T06:22:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

Saturday evening I was on my way home from a class when I pulled into someone's driveway to turn the car around and thought I was about to hit a tall man who appeared out of no where. At least that is what I thought until that part of the brain said in a flash that there was no one there. It took my breath away and as I calmed down I realized that it was a ghost.

I went on with the evening meeting friends and having dinner out thinking no more of it since there was really no need. It wasn't until I was turning in my own drive way that again the man appeared in front of my car with me screaming thinking I was about to hit someone. Again realizing that there was no one there. Walking into the house I found everyone asleep so I just went to bed not thinking any more about it.

It was when I was watching a movie Sunday morning with my daughter in the living room that I saw the tall man walk by my chair right in front of me. I can be a little slow sometimes when I realized that this was not going to go away. Talking to the man I asked what he wanted and got no response. Typical, with some ghost so I finished the movie and stared to move toward leaving to drive to meet the class that was scheduled in Keller, TX.

Just before I was leaving I heard my guide say, you might want to get on the road now as there will be traffic around that part of the 820 hwy. Did I listen? No, I was taking my time and sure enough on the drive to the class I was sitting in traffic. Need to listen more!

On the drive sitting in traffic I had plenty of time to think about the class when I heard... "He wants to give you a message". "Oh! Now when I am driving?" "Yes" I heard form my beautiful spirit guide or Angel." "OK!" Apparently the ghost was not going to talk to me but to my guide so my guide related the message to me. He says, "he is sorry that he couldn't do anything to help, but he tried." "Who is the message for since I am going to a class and there are a several people in it?" I had already thought of one person.

The name that my Guide told me was not the one I had in mind and to make it a little more strange it was not for that person but for their daughter. That meant I had to give the message the person in my class who would have to relate it to her daughter. Complicated? No, just the way it sometimes works.

"OK", I said and asked, "What does the message mean and why was he standing in front of my car when I was turning into the different driveways? Did he die in a car accident"? Was there a crash" "Tell me what was going on?" All I heard was, "He is gone." Great! I thought as the traffic started to move and I turned on the radio to tune out the other world. I could hear the Angels laughing and enjoying the music as we listened to the joyous beat in the car as we moved out of the traffic on to open road.

Driving up to where the class was held I turned off the radio and heard, Big sighs and Oh..... in disappointment. Of course this struck me as funny and I had to ask, " Aren't you guys supposed to be in Church?" the answer was what I already knew that they are not bound like we are to time and space and can be in many places as once. They also love music and celebrating. "Ok, works for me".

Walking into class I was meet at the door by the lady who the message was for which I thought was odd but I told her I had to talk to her and told her the story. She smiled and said that the morning before her daughter was involved in a small car accident and was OK and knew about the ghost. Oh, I thought since the ghost appeared to me in the late afternoon in front of my car. Makes since to me and she seemed happy with the message for her daughter.

At that moment I heard from my guide saying, "You need to move the car now" I rushed outside and moved the car....

Friday

2010-10-08T08:11:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

So much can happen in just a few days.. I have been busy getting ready to to my Akashic Record readings which is setting up forms, scheduling, and updating the website to explain about the Records and what to expect. On top of that I have been sending out emails letting people know about our Healing Circles which were built for seekers and students.

This month at our Healing Circle my Akasich Records teacher was speaking and we ran out of chairs. The healing that went on on such a large group level was truly amazing!!! It was very powerful.

The next day I met a new friend to do a Reiki Session at "the Acupuncture Wellness Clinic". On my way out my friend who owns the clinic got a phone call from someone who was in a lot of pain. It was a random call and she was booked for the day so she asked if I would speak to them. I did and we talked about Reiki. It is hard to explain to someone about Reiki when they are in sever pain over the phone.

She said she wanted to look around and see what she could find and would call if she needed the Reiki. We hung up and I was telling my friend what happened when I realized that I had picked up her vibration in my heart through her voice and could send her Reiki for the pain. I could send it to herif she wanted it it was there and if not then she did not have to accept the healing energy. All I knew is that I wanted to help.

I sat down and went into my heart Chakra sending out the Reiki using my symbols and sending the healing energy to help her with the pain. It was easy as I just homed in on her vibration. As I was sending Reiki I started to feel major pain in my body from what I knew was hers. I had had the same thing happen to me 15 years ago and recognised it right off. Amazing how just like child birth we forget pain like that. My body and I remembered it right off.

I knew in my training that if I allowed my body to stay in that pain I would go into stress and double over. I started to focus moving the energy out of my body and draining it out of my feet into the earth which sucked the pain it right out. I knew when I was doing this that she had accepted the Reiki on a subconscious level as I was feeling the sensation in my body from her pain.

I sent the Reiki until I lost the vibration in my heart and then stoped. I grounded myself back into my body and went on with my day. Later I was surprised to work on someone for a soul retrieval which I stumbled on to and the two of us had a session... Busy day! Exhausted, I went to bed at 8pm after sending out my consent forms for the people that I am reading their Akashic Records next week.

Monday

2010-10-04T06:15:00.001-07:00

It was a busy week last week. I was invited to do a Wellness Expo with one of my dear Friends and mentor. We set up and did the Expo all on Friday starting early in the morning. Wonderful visiting with people and talking about the different modalities of healing.

Saturday was the Art Goggle in Fort Worth, TX and so were invited to do a Shamonic Drumming Circle which went very well as people joined in on the drumming and enjoying the beats. That started at 4pm and lasted until 10pm that night. Amazing evening as I realized all the drumming was drawing people to the circle as they walked from the end of the street to hear the beat. There is something in us that makes us want to feel and be apart of the rhythm.

I tried to keep my eyes to myself and only a few times noticed a ghost standing behind a few people also enjoying the fun. Once as I was helping tear down our table I saw and felt someone standing really close to me like then were looking over my shoulder. When I glanced to let them know I was stepping back and to watch out as I might run into them did I realize that it was a ghost only watching me break down the table.You would think that by now that I would be used to it but it still sometimes takes me by surprise every now and then.

Yesterday, I enjoyed a visit from a dear friend and as we were talking wisps of colored smoke would pass between us. I knew they were listening to what we had to say and rightfully so as we were talking about their world.

Today, I am looking forward to catching up from the weekend. I had a few sign ups for my Akashic Records readings and that will begin next week so I need to sort and get organised so that I can email to confirm the readings. Life keeps opening up to so many amazing growing experiences. It is so exciting to be apart of such a loving and supportive community of Healers and Teachers. I am so Blessed!

Wed.

2010-09-29T08:12:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

Today has been a busy day working with our Community Wellness network which is helping bring Healers and Teachers together in a network in our area. It has been a busy day working on flyer and the Internet.

It is rather funny that I have been walking though mist and seeing pennies on the floor or on my chair today so I know that my Dad is trying to make sure that I know he is around.

I have been working in the Akashic Records which is an amazing energy that is linked to an energy vibration that allows the opening of what is known as the book of Life that is mentioned in the Bible. The energy is a beautiful energy to link to and learn a great deal with one's own path and walk upon this earth.

I am finding that when I am in that vibration I seem to notice the other energies in the house a lot more. Working with the records has opened my eyes to a greater respect of all things and all of creation.....

Sunday

2010-09-26T08:18:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

Well, it has been an interesting week. I have been working in the Akashic Records and learning that how I am navigate in them is different than how I used to a few months ago. I have been studying with a teacher here who was brought into my life and has showed me a different way of reading the records. It is a lot like working with dreams only with your eyes open and you are awake.

I don't know if most people realize that they can learn how to work in their own records and retrieve information that they need to get answers that will help them move through the peaks and valleys of this life time. The records are a high vibrational library that everything is kept and like a library it can be looked at read by linking on that energy vibration.

Like everything else it is only learning the process and practice. It is not something that only a few can do and many people find it funny when they do learn how to do it that they have already been doing the Akashic Records in their dreams. We all have and like a real library we can be kicked out if we do not follow all the rules.

Thursday

2010-09-23T18:10:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

What I finding when I am in this higher energy that it is a higher vibration I am able to connect more to the activity in our own home. This is simply done by raising the chakras in the body and thinking about something happy. With practice it only takes a moment and the intention.

I find that many people are afraid of ghost but the truth is that we are 50% spirit/50% matter meaning that a ghost is a person without the body. They experience fear, love and anger as the rest of us do but understanding the frustration of them being lost or afraid to cross is what we have to understand. Sometimes it is the heart energy which survives death and many have stayed behind to care for their loved ones only to be traped and lost for years.

In our own home we have been going through a change with one of the children moving off to college. With that I find that some of the ghost who are moving through seem to notice the energy shift in our home.

My husband and I were talking the other day and I looked up for a second and standing right behind him was a man looking at us and listening to our conversation. As I gazed directly at him it seemed startle him and he vanished. It made me laugh!

What is funny is that I have watched the animals move around someone standing in the kitchen. The pets don't seem threatened by them only moving out of the way...What is really funny is that most people think that you have to go to haunted place or house to find ghost but they are every where.

Sat

2010-09-18T04:46:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

It has been a while since I last wrote... a lot has been happening in my life lately and it seems that I have needed the time to sort through it. I have been studying the Akashic records with a teacher here in the local area and had decided to open them and live in them for a few days as to help me get used to the higer vibration and help me access them during the day faster as practice.

Tuesday night I had gone about the day enjoying my connection with the higher energy and was excited about going to bed hoping that I would do some dream work. What I did not expect was to wake up at 2am and have things running through my head without stoping. I tried to go back to sleep but could not shut down all the information that was coming in.

I have some friends who have a small business and I must have been thinking of them some time before I fell asleep because all the information that came in was how to promote their business. Looking at the clock I rolled over and tried sleeping but it kept coming in loud and clear and I knew if I did not get up and shoot them an email I would not have any rest. The email turned into several emails as every time I tried to lay down more information would come in. I spent most of the night writing.

The next day I tried to sleep but could not settle down. That evening I was participating in giving the Oneness Blessing at our Blessing Circle. Also, we were having a meeting which we are starting that involves the Healers and Teachers in the Fort Worth area.

I was running a little behind and arrived just in time to help with the set up. People were already walking in the door. I noticed that it was doubled in the attendance and we were one Blessing giver short. Not to worry Spirit was guiding us. We finished in the right amount of time to start the meeting for those wanting to participate.

Then it hit me. I could not catch my bearings. My brain had left the building and when I took my awareness to that space it was blank. Now I have had that experience before when we were doing the Blessing but it wore off the next day. Before I went to sleep I closed the Akashic Records and slept like a door knob. The next day was Friday and with Steve and the children away at school I was working home alone accompanied by all of our pets.

It started subtlety but I began to notice that there were people in the house. When I say people I mean ghost like figures but not like I usually see and experience them. It was like the house was full of people walking around doing their own thing. I caught myself saying excuse me as I bumped into a few. It took me a minute for my mind to register fully what was happening. Then as I became more aware of what was happening I started to watch as people were moving about.

They all seemed unaware that I was watching them or didn't care. The day wore on in that fashion with them doing their thing and I finely doing mine. I noticed that animals acted like it was normal and would change their path to avoid bumping into them. Hmmmmmm......Then it dawned on me that having the Records open and doing the Blessing must have done something in raising my vibration to a level that I could see the other world so clearly.

It was like our worlds were right on top of each other. Sure I have caught glimpses of ghost or Spirits but never had I seen so many and experienced their world for the duration of a full day. It had always been with an effort of changing my vibration or them coming to me for help. Wow! I spent the rest of the day with this happening all around me but it started to wear off as I climbed into bed. It was not as noticeable the next day

But on Friday the information kept flowing in and I wrote a few more emails to my friends on promoting their business. My teacher explained that when you work or live in that higher vibration it takes a little while for your body to adjust to being back into the wave length we all are used to. Interesting experience ......

Thursday

2010-09-09T14:28:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

Well, it has been a strange couple of days. It has been raining but the energy seems to be off. Instead of feeling like welcoming in the rain there is a since of being stagnate. Yesterday, in the early afternoon I needed a break and found myself extremely tired. All I could think of was taking a bath an indulgences I often don't have the time to do.

I drew the bath and dropped some sea salt and baking soda in the water to help draw out the weighted energy I was feeling. It also makes the skin really soft. The water was nice and hot and felt good as it soaked deep into the bones. As I relaxed I found myself drifting off into a nice twilight. Meaning that I was in both the world of dreams and yet still aware of this world.

That is when it happened. I saw a young man of twenty and he was talking to me and trying desperately to show me something. Images were flashing on a screen like memories. I do remember thinking that these were not my memories and that they were separate from my own experiences. Emotions and a whole life flashed before me as I watched and then I saw him again standing in front of me as if saying goodbye and he vanished.

I started to come out of what seemed like a dreamlike state but as I did I was aware that the story that I had just seen was leaving me and that soon when I awoke I would not remember it. As I started to come back into this world I was a little startled that I was in the bathtub. It took a moment for me to find my bearings and move my body again in the water yet there was a since of a great weight lifted from my soul.

I was in a stunned state for a little while longer trying to recall the memory of what had just happened. All I can recall is what I have just written. I have no recollection of the story that I saw and I do know that at the time it was very important. It seemed very real when I was viewing it but what happened I don't know....

Later that evening I went to bed and slept. I dreamed a dream and woke up this morning chanting a name. But it was to my annoyance as it was someone I had parted with in this life time knowing I would see them one day on the other side in better circumstances. As I heard the name from my own lips I recalled the dream watching it come back in full detail.

It was later today that the meaning of the dream came and the message about this person who is still among the living had thought about me and had wished me well. The dream was about an understanding that sometimes things in this world don't always work out the way we plan but it is a new beginning in the Spirit world. I knew to that I was being sent love and blessings my way as I continued my path on this earth with no ill will being sent by this person.

Monday

2010-09-06T20:41:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

What an amazing weekend with lots of enjoying family and friends. I could not have asked for a better weekend. Today on Labor Day I was enjoying my family when my Daughter wanted to watch a movie.

I was also in the mood and started to select a movie out of our little movie library when I heard something drop on the wooden floor behind me. As I looked behind me I saw a penny and the funny part was that there was nothing behind me that it could have fallen from except empty space. Talk about pennies from heaven.

I knew in an instant that my Father was again saying hi. I could feel his presence and knew that this is his way of saying hello when he is around. I called my Mom later and let her know that dad was there enjoying the day with us. She laughed as she was happy that I had that connection.

The day was really uneventful and restful. I have enjoyed early mornings having coffee with my husband and afternoons reading in our garden in the back yard. It is so beautiful to watch all the garden spirits bringing it to life.

It was around 6:15pm when I heard in my thoughts.... "you have a class!" and so I did. I quickly rushed off making it in plenty of time and enjoyed the rest of the evening listening and watching taking note of the colors and energy that surrounded the students and teachers often catching a glimps of a spirit guide or a loved one surrounding them.

Sometimes I wonder if people really know how much they are supported and loved on the other side. We are never alone and always surrounded in love.

Thursday

2010-09-02T17:56:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

The week is flying by again. I learned something new. I discovered that the song "Bullet Proof" plays in my mind when I am picking up energy around me that is not good for me. It seems to be a reminder to watch myself and to protect myself from negative vibs that I am susceptible. I love it that my angels are watching out for me in the world.

Energy is really something that I don't think a lot of people think about and yet we do send out signals all the time. The other day I was driving to visit a friend in Ft. Worth and something triggered my emotions that made me angry. I sat there at the red light getting mad and realized what I was doing. I could feel the heat and energy moving through my body and out of my skin into the air.

Then I heard, "pull it back and send it out of my feet into the earth." I did as I was told and felt the anger release..Next the thought came for me to feel love and to send it out instead. Amazingly, I could do this and again experienced the emotion moving through my body and out of my skin only this time it was a beautiful feeling....the whole experience took the time for the light to turn green.

Wow, if I could change my feelings in a moment and send out love instead of anger on to the world how powerful is that? Then the thought came that we live in anger and fear and those emotions are sent out and become part of the air and energy that is around people, animals, plants and the earth. No wonder we are all so angry but we have the power to change it all. As I drove on down the road. I realized that I was my own personal power. It felt great!!!

Sunday

2010-08-29T12:48:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

I know it has been a full week since I last wrote. A lot has happened and I have been very busy attending to the different areas of my life trying to sort things out. One of the most strangest thing that happened is that I received a visit one night from a very angry entity that was truly focused on me.

Last Wed I went to bed at 9:30pm Texas time totally exhausted from the days activities. As I fell into bed and began to relax I noticed a dark shadow on the ceiling and this amazing amount of anger directed towards me where I was laying. And no I was not asleep or even in twilight. I was fully awake and eyes open.

My husband had not come to bed and was in the other room with our youngest watching a movie. My oldest child was away at college. The anger in the room was so intense and moved closer towards me. I felt this shiver run through me of cold fear as I lay there feeling exposed. Then a thought came to me to call out to my drum that I use in journeying. It was hanging on the wall a few feet away from the bed but I could not reach it and dared not move.

Then I heard a slow steady drum beat drumming in my ears. At first I could not believe what I was hearing and soon began to realise that I could hear it somewhere in my head. As it began to get louder I could feel the vibration moving across my body and covering my whole being.
I relaxed and forgot about the visitor and falling sound asleep only to wake up at 3am in which I checked to see if it was still there. It was gone and I was safe.

The next morning I was visiting with my Mom and she was asked me what was going on with me the other night. She said that my niece who is two and just learned how to say my name looked at her at 7:30pm California time and said, "Call Ana"! Mom said that she doesn't talk like that and it was very strange.... As we talked I told her the story and we checked out time and it matched up to the time that I had my visit.

I spent the week trying to find the energy and trace it to its source but had no luck until it finely came in a thought.... I say this as it just appears in my mind and when this happens it is always on the button. Someone I knew was trying to cleanse a home and wanted me to scan the house with the owner's permission in my mind's eye since they lived in another state and I could not be there in person. I reported my information to the person who was cleansing and forgot about it.

It was later that I found out that the person did not finish the job completely and there were a few lose ends. This being my visitor who was angry and followed my energy trail back to me. I informed them about the visit. There is still work to be done..... In a few days I will do the cleansing myself......

Sat

2010-08-21T18:11:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

Yesterday I was in the living room watching a movie and looked up and saw two people in my entryway next to the front door. They seemed to be interested in what I was watching and when they realized that I was watching them they faded away. Sometimes when they are that clear it takes me a moment to really understand they are a ghost. I was not afraid and when the thought hit.... Oh there is someone in the house they had already gone making an instant thought saying they were just ghost.

Today, while my husband was shaving and I was talking to him about our plans for the day. I glanced over toward our bedroom and saw the full shape and body of a man. He was looking at me and listening to what I was talking about. As soon as my gaze began to fix on his image he was gone. They are really coming in a lot stronger then they used to and I was wondering what was causing them to be so bold.

They seem to be just curious except the man on the stairs who seemed to be upset when one of the children moved away to school. He lets us know he is around by making noises or slaming doors on the other side of the house. They are not draining us or I would have sent them away. But I am thinking it might be time to send them on into the light...I guess I will have to have a conversation with them.

I got two calls for "Spirit Rescue" this week..... We are moving... on with this work....

Thurs

2010-08-19T16:37:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

So much going on this week that I need to really take time to refresh myself and renew who I really am again. The other day I got up and was leaving to visit someone. I had the title of a book in my mind that I had on my bookshelf in our library.

The funny thing is that I had not thought of the book since my friend died in February as we were reading the same book and sharing. I had shelved it and forgot about it. So there it was waiting for me high on my shelf "Second part of "Journey of the Soul". I thought maybe the reason I had it on my mind was that I should give it as a gift to my friend I was visiting that day.

After thumbing through it I soon discovered that there was a lot of good reading in it still. So I opted not to give it away. Later in the evening I went to a Seminar with my husband and was sitting there thinking if I had made the right decision to be there. I then asked my guides for a sign any sign would do even a small one. I got distracted and moved on with the lecture but later on I glanced at the bookshelf. In the corner of the shelf I saw the "Journey of the Soul" book and thought," Oh.... they are reading the same book. "Good for them!" And went on listening....

It took a few minutes to realise that I had just gotten conformation from my guides that I was exactly where I was supposed to be... Wow!!! I love that connection and affirmation.

Tues

2010-08-17T02:15:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

Yesterday morning I was awoken by a loud slam of a door which was odd since our oldest was away at college and our youngest spent the night away. I must say that I did remember the incident when I was taking a class a few weeks ago and we heard knocking at our bedroom door. It must be the same ghost and unhappy that the children are not around as much. Changes for everyone even our ghosts that live in the house.

Yesterday I received a phone call from someone wanting to know what it meant when they were woken up with someone poking them in the back in bed. They were also hearing someone talking while they were trying to sleep and it was keeping them up. I laughed and told them, "you have ghosts". "Really," they said, "what do you do about them"? So I told them about our Spirit Rescue Team.

So they were wanting to book ASAP as the ghost were keeping them up. The funny thing is that we get referrals all the time by word of mouth... It is a common thing to have ghosts in the home or to have some kind of energy that makes people uncomfortable. If that is the case then there is hope and we can help change the energy into a more positive and loving nature. We can talk to the ghost and cross then ones that are ready to cross...

Even now as I write I can hear someone walking around and everyone is still asleep... Even the animals are sleeping. The living in our home are used to all the going on around in the house. I don't mind them passing through as long as they don't drain us or try to scare us. If they do then we have them leave. The energy in our home has not been dark and they do not seem to stay very long as we seem to be a stopping place for them to move through as they journey to the other side.

Some will ask for help and others just seem curious about what we are doing and then leave. This ghost seems to be hanging around interested in what is happening with the kids and us. I may have to have a chat and see what is going on. Well, it is early so I am going back to be to catch a few more hrs of sleep before the day starts...

Sunday

2010-08-15T11:48:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

It has been almost a week since I wrote as it was the week that my oldest has moved into her dorms at College. I thought I was alright until I drove out of the parking lot and realized that our lives had changed again forever. In that instant, I broke down and cried for the last few days.

It was good as I went to sleep that my guides came and reminded me that I had a loss and was once again in grieving mode. Lucky for me that when I went to the Wellness Expo saw a few of my own Teachers who said the same thing... It was beautiful to know that I was well supported on both sides. The Expo was in Fort Worth for the weekend and I had a small space on the literature table and was able to attend.

After the Expo we meet at the Acupuncture Community Wellness center to talk about organising a healing and Spiritual community in Fort Worth. I was thrilled at the way that everyone had an idea but was happy to work as a team. We named the Community and set another date to meet and put together a website.

Today has been busy with kids working on an old car with our son and helping our daughter get settled in her dorm. later I am picking up my literature at the Expo and visiting a dear friend. Still so much to do and I better get back to work before I am missed!

Tues

2010-08-10T18:48:00.001-07:00

Dear Diary,

It is so nice to get the heads up from Spirit that the day may not turn out as you planned and therefore you are able to change plans in the moment and go with the flow. This happened this Sunday with me when I was going to meet up with a few friends and they did not show up.

Lucky for me it was something I had anticipated as I had a heads up. The day went on to plan B and I was able to continue my plans without worrying if it was going to work out. I did get a text later on and discovered that something did occur that could not be helped and they would contact me later. I was so happy to hear that they were OK and in a much better place of understanding.

The other thing that I see is that we go around wearing a mask and it is only because people are not ready for us to be who we really are. Even now I have a few friends who if I told them that I can see the other side that they would think I was not all right. The funny part is that it is quite normal among my circle of friends and close family as we are very open with our gifts.

I sometimes forget being in such a safe and loving environment that most of the world does not see and is cut off from the beauty of being apart of both worlds. You can see the fear in their eyes and posted in their energy. It is too bad that many do not know that everyone has this ability. It is not for anyone special but for everyone and anyone.

Some come into awaking into their spiritual gifts thinking that they are bad or something is wrong with them but the truth is they are waking up to the truth in who they really are and once the fear is gone they find happiness in the connection. I wish I could open the eyes of the ones who are in soooo much pain but I find that the road blocks are like the ones I myself have placed in my own path and had to over come the obsticls so that I could see.

It is a never a ending process and a life long lesson...

Friday Post

2010-08-07T06:02:00.000-07:00

Well, I got a full report from my Daughter when she returned from LA after visiting family and doing a clearing. What seemed to be the tipping point is when she spent the night at the house in LA and was attacked in her dreams. Upon waking up she felt that it was very necessary to cleanse the house and as soon as possible.

She worked with the person who lived there and they did the Spirit Rescue finding 5 open portals. This meant that a lot of energy was coming in and out of the house. The negative entities were swept back in and the portals were closed leaving the ghost that were trapped. Next, they went and talked to the ghost helping the ones cross who wanted to go.

I got a report the day after the clearing from the person who lived there and it seems that all is well and very peaceful since the clearing and Spirit Rescue. My daughter and I were in agreement that we were attacked weeks before she left because of the major portals that were open and they knew what was going to happen.

One thing that I don't think that most people know is that there seems to be really no secrets in the world of Spirit. Pretty much all your laundry is out there for them to see or hear about.... They always seem to know when we are coming..

Yesterday a dear friend asked if we could clear her home here in Arlington, TX. Our Spirit Rescue team here will be doing that tomorrow. Sometimes we invite people to come and observe if they want to come as it helps people know what we do and how it is done.

I got another email yesterday asking if we could clear another person's home and I will talk to the team tomorrow about setting that up.. We are here to help both sides of the veil. All I know is there seems to be lots to do!

Tuesday

2010-08-03T15:03:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

I got to spend the weekend at a wonderful workshop so I did not have time to check in. Early Sat morning before I left to get on the road I was getting dressed and found one of Steve's shirts in my closet and thought in 20 years he has never done this...only that he must have not been thinking and hung it up in my closet by mistake. A small voice went through my mind... A ghost? Naaaaa......

I must admit I was in a hurry and hung it on his closet door for him to hang up later in the day and ran off to meet my class. The funny part is that later in the evening when I returned home and was getting ready for bed his shirt was still hanging on his door. So I just hung it up for him wondering why he did not hang it up....

That evening we were talking and decided to close and lock our door so we would not be disturbed even though our daughter is in California and our son was working late. Our children have a habit of knocking very loudly on the door if they find it closed and locked. I made a slight joke to Steve that you never know when they would come in and bang on the door....

As we were joking around about it someone knocked very loudly three times on the door. I laughed and called out to our son...no answer. Steve and I combed the house looking for him but no one but us was in the house... His car was not even in the drive way. Hmmmm.... this time Steve herd it to and could not say It was just me! Our son called an hour later asking to stay with a friend and was not coming home for the night....

The next morning I got up to get dressed and found another one of Steve's shirts in my closet only this time I went and got him and asked if he put it in my closet. Our son was still over at his friend's home. "No", I did not!" Steve replied and I told him about the other day... My son was driving up and I asked him about it which he thought I was nuts!

Hmmmmm..... We have a prankster in the house....

Monday I spent with a dear friend who is planning to sit on the roof of a little Methodist church on Sat Aug 27 and will not come down until she raises 10,000 lbs of food and awareness for the hunger in our area.... It looks to be quite an event and I was honoured to sit at one of the planning meetings... It is just soooo hot in this Texas heat in Aug... on a roof.... My prayers are with her....

Friday Again!

2010-07-29T16:04:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

It has been an inspiring week and has gone by so fast. A dear friend has been approved this week to go up on a roof of a church and sit until they raise 10 tons of food and awareness for the hunger in our area. It sounds extreme but when you become aware that so many do not know where the food pantries are located in our area. Many have no clue who to ask or afraid to ask then you understand the purpose of the intention.

A little church with no more than a 100 members answered the calling. They are raising the whole community to help bring this event to fruition which will be on Aug 27th 2010. I am in Awe..... at the big heart that burst forth for this effort in humanity...

Also, another dear friend and I went this past Tuesday to visit "A Day Away Retreat" in Boyd TX. We met with this beautiful young couple who's hospitality was incredibility uplifting leaving you with a since of beauty and loving energy both during and days that followed our visit.

This is now certainly the place where we plan to do a Healing Retreat in early Nov. They have done such a wonderful job with the house and the beautiful acres surrounding it. The retreat also has peaceful pond along with horses and Alpacas. I felt very much like I was back home again in Taos, NM...

I put my daughter on the plane today to visit family for the summer as we were walking into the airport to check her in. I felt this strong presence and knew imminently without a doubt that the Arch Angel Michael was with us. My daughter has the gift of working with the angels and I was assured that the plane would be held in their care so I was not to worry. There was no question in my mind who was around us and they showed me in a small vision of them lifting the plane up and carrying it to her destination.

As I kissed her goodbye and watched her go into security I realized that the presence had gone but knew without a doubt she was in good hands. There are really no words to describe the strength of the presence and the reassurance I felt...but that did not keep me from texting her about buying a sandwich for lunch on the plane and when she got off if the family was able to find her....

Fri

2010-07-23T07:07:00.000-07:00

I am always amazed how fast the week flys by! It is such a beautiful time to be living on the earth. Last night I was walking into my bedroom and walked through a mist and could feel the shift of energy move through me. You would think that I would be used to it but it still makes me stop and think about what had just happened.

For the past few days I have been busy working on classes and getting things ready for advertising and prep work. It is amazing how much time that takes but I can't imagine doing anything else. It is such a wonderful feeling to be doing something that you feel so called to do.

Yesterday, I was visiting someone and we were in a store when a women walked up and started to talk to us. My heart gripped up my chest and my skin started felt like it was burning...I had to stop and recenter myself and think while she was talking to us what was happening. I realized that she was carrying something that did not agree with my energy. That was OK because that is where she is but I did Not need to bring it home with me... The energy seemed to throw me off balance and I pushed it into the earth knowing it was not mine.

Later that day I meet some ladies at a Beauty shop and I felt like someone had just put on a warm healing blanket on me. It was wonderful! I indulged myself in their energy and enjoyed every minute that I was in their company. Yes, I allowed myself to take some home with me as they were giving this beautiful energy away. What a amazing world we live in!

Wed

2010-07-21T07:29:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

It seems funny to me that when I was cleaning the hall bathroom in the house as I came out into the hall I saw a man standing at the top of the stairs. He was just as surprised to see me as I was to see him. I knew he was a ghost and I am not sure what he thought of me but when I turned the corner I realized what had just happened and backed up but he was not there any more.

My impression was that he was just passing through. No strings attached....He has not come to visit in my dreams asking for help nor has he talked to anyone in the house who sees. Yesterday, I was in the living room and looked up and saw a face of a women looking from the dining room into the living room. She seemed to be just a curious as we are of them. Again, no one I recognised and felt she was just passing through.

I have been told that the house sits on top of springs and the energy from us attracts the spirits to the house. Mostly just passing through but we do get request for help from some. Part of my job is to be aware and not to bring fear into the home because that attracts the wrong type of energy or ghost. Then if I am contacted I help or find someone else who can help. Just like we do with people who are living in this world of matter.

Nothing is different but the energy from the ghost is just a little higher in vibration than here in our world of slower vibration. As a dear friend said once, "People are People"....Some days I am in tune with their world and others I am focused on my own. What I have been learning about is to notice when my body or energy makes the switch. Often I am caught off guard and being aware and in the moment is the real challenge.

Yesterday, I remembered that I might have an appointment for a hair cut this week. A month ago I knew that my beautician's mom was in the hospital and that she was not doing well. I had not talked to her since my last appointment so I did not know what had happened. When I called to check up on the appointment I heard a small voice inside my head say that, "she is dealing with the death of her mom so you will have to wait and be patient".

Knowing this I went about my day and had forgotten about the appointment when I received a phone call from my beautician that her mom had passed away at 6pm yesterday asking if we could reschedule.

Sunday Evening

2010-07-18T18:24:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

Friday morning I awoke in a fit of dreams about a workshop that I was going to teach with one of my own teachers on Saturday. I felt a little anxiety about the workshop as I was not sure that I was prepared. I wanted the students to have more then just information that they could read out of a book. I wanted them to have something that would prepare them as they grow.

The more that I tried to prepare, the more frustrated I got...finally I gave up and went through the day without caring about trying to get ready. It was not until later in the evening that I remembered I had a class and started to panic as I grabbed up books and materials for the students. As I was running around the house a small voice inside said, "relax I got it covered". Peace flooded in and all around me so I went to bed.

My dreams were fun and I had no worries. Upon awaking, I remembered I had a Workshop and worse with one of my teachers without real preparation. I again heard the small voice say, "relax, I got it covered". Again, the peace..... the workshop was starting in the early morning so I had just enough time to get dressed, but as I was leaving I heard, "did you forget this? What about that and maybe it would be good to take this." After a few years of getting in trouble when I didn't listen, I now listen!

I was early as it was 8:30am and the workshop started at 9am, so it gave me time to go over my material that I had gathered and put together. One of the things I put in the packet was an advanced meditation...and I did not know why I put it in. As I was about to tear it out the hostess showed up and we started to talk. The students who came to the workshop on Saturday were not 101 students but very advanced. Not what I had in mind to teach...

As I did the opening for the Workshop my mind was racing! "What are you going to teach!" These students are so much more advanced. Then it was my turn to speak for the next two hours... As I opened my mouth with no clue what to say...Peace moved through my whole being and the words tumbled off the tongue. It was the inner workings of energy and a little quantum physics integrated with the chakra system. When I would pause, thoughts and pictures would enter into my mind.

There was no time for me to question as the thoughts moved on through, using my own experiences to explain them. It was when someone talked about a cretin meditation they had heard of that I remembered the packet and it was the same meditation that I had thought about tearing out of the packets...."Wow" The students seemed to be engaged and learning.... I was learning that sometimes all we have to do is show up and trust....

This morning I woke up and again everyone was asleep so I lay there and went into twilight. What came were little flashes like movie clips of my past from childhood until now when I thought I was all alone. What I saw in each clip was that I wasn't alone. I was loved and surrounded even when I didn't realize it. As I came out of twilight moving more into the world of matter. I still felt a strong presence around me and a feeling of great love.

Thurs; the dreams...

2010-07-15T16:50:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

I woke up this morning chanting a chant that my Qi Gong Master teacher taught me a while ago, to protect myself when I am under spiritual attack. Not only was I doing that, but in my dreams a song kept playing in my thoughts called "Bullet Proof". The only phrase that played over and over was the part about being bullet proof. It about made me crazy when I was brushing my teeth as the lyric kept on. How strange, I thought and remembered my Teacher giving me instructions again in my dream.

It was not until I was having coffee and eating my oatmeal that my daughter walked into the kitchen and greeted me with a narration of her dream. She had had what most would call a nightmare but her description was in detail with the characteristics of a Vivid dream. She described a dark entity that took on a shape of a woman and had two faces.... It went on and I won't go into detail but will say that it ended up waking her from the dream in cold fear.

She quickly started to call in the light and protect herself, the whole house and everyone that is in our home. She told me that she had woken up at 3am which is the active time of night for the other side. As she continued to talk about her dream I started to make the connection to my own dream and the protection I was doing in the dream.....

Hmmm.... as it stated to come together.....I am thinking this has to do with the little job that she is going to do in California. Last night I was talking to my teacher who leads our "Spirit Rescue" team and got home really late from the "Developing Circle". Everyone had gone to bed so I was not able to talk to my daughter about a technique for her to use in clearing the home.

I know in the past when we are going to clear a home with strong activity and often a dark entity or entities, it seems that the other side always seems to know that we are coming. Sometimes, I have had the experience of lots of activity in our own home and even visits in dreams or in waking hours that are not pleasant. It always seems to be a warning or an effort to keep us away if the entity is not of the positive character. So I am guessing the dreams are related.

This was not what we were expecting as it was only to be a house clearing and crossing the ghosts over now we are sure that we are dealing with something much darker....My instinct as a mom tell me not to let her do it, but there is something that tells me that she needs to do this and she will be successful. Besides there will be lots of help on both sides.... Mmmmmmm......It will be interesting to see what comes in twilight........

Wed

2010-07-14T04:47:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

So much has been going on in the last two days.... the night before last, I had a dream about opening the doors under my sink and all the things that we store under the sink was falling out onto the floor. I was in a hurry so I threw everything back in and shut the doors. When I woke up I thought about the dream and remembered this incident.

As I was in a session with my Reiki Client, this dream kept coming back to me so I pushed it away and continued with the session. Later, in the car, this thought again came back and I realized that the things that I kept stashed under the sink were things that I needed to clear out. Then I remembered that the Solar energy that came in Sunday was helping people to clear out and move into a different space; a changing of the guard. (Changing the old guard with the new.)

Tuesday seemed to be all about looking at the things that I didn't want to deal with by acknowledging them and letting go. I also knew that this was not going to go away until I did this, so I sat down into a meditation.

Symbols are one of the languages of the soul, so I went back in a dream like state and opened the doors under the sink. I pulled out things to take a better look at them and there seemed to be a memory attached to the things that I brought out. There were old things I had stashed away that were of no use to me any more that needed to be tossed. I acknowledged them, allowing the memory and emotion to come with it as it moved through me, and when it was finished playing out, thanked it for teaching me and put it in the trash bag.

In my meditation I hulled out two large trash bags out to the curb, closed the garage doors and came back to clean and put new paper down in the cabinet for new memories to have a clean home. When I was finished I closed the doors and came out of my meditation.

I love this energy that has come into the earth that is helping us all move into a higher realm of living and healing. One of the important things that we need to do when working with the other side is to deal with our own things in our life that pull at us.

When it is time to let go you will get a nudge from your soul. This helps to make things so much clearer. It's nice to know what is yours and what is not. This way you are not projecting your emotional baggage on to others or your mind taking over making things up when you are working.... Very important to pay attention and deal with if you are to work with "Spirit Rescue".

By doing this you don't lose your memory, but you don't have the emotional baggage attached so if you come upon a situation that is close to something you have experienced you can look at it without becoming undone... But this is not something you do once and are good. You have to always be working on releasing and healing or the work gets cloged up so to speak..

I got a phone call from someone in California and they seemed to have ghosts, only the ghosts were interfering with the lives of the living. When that happens it is time to look at the situation and see about a "Spirit Rescue". I can't go this time but my daughter is able to go so there is a little prep work before she leaves that we need to work on.... It will be interesting...

Friday Evening

2010-07-09T19:03:00.000-07:00

Mid-morning today, my daughter asked me to go to see a movie, so I went with her for a girls morning out. Since we were at the movie we had to turn our phones on silent. About the time the previews came on I felt like my heart was aching. I was feeling really sad and realized that I had run out of the house without doing my ritual of protecting myself. I do this every day since I am empathic and pick up other people's emotions and have to sort out who's is who's.

As I quickly did my little ritual, I had the distinct feeling that someone was thinking of me and looked down in my purse where I saw a light glowing. I knew then that someone was trying to call me and I needed to answer. Excusing myself I quickly went out into the hallway to call back the number but found a message. It was from a friend who wanted to share some very distressing news. I quickly texted them back and as soon as I responded the heart ache went away.

I could feel some relief as they knew where I was and they were OK.... going back into the movie I was able to enjoy the time I had with my daughter.

Friday

2010-07-09T05:27:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

I forgot to mention that I went to the Doctor for a yearly check up and he was extremely busy, so my time there was a little longer than usual. I found myself in my cotton gown sitting in a cold room feeling a bit exposed wishing that the appointment would be over soon. That was just not my luck. The longer I waited the more anxious I got.

As I sat there waiting, I tried to move my mind away from my situation as I was getting nervous. Then it dawned on me to see if I could take the time to meditate. That worked wonderfully as I sat there in silence. In the stillness of the room, my spirit guide came in with a thought, "Why not Reiki the room with beautiful energy for the ladies who might be in my same situation during the day". Why not?!

So I came out of the meditation and started to Reiki the room filling the room with loving energy. I got so carried away that I Reikied all the tools and cotton balls in the room. By the time the Dr. came in I was feeling great about the energy in the room and being able to connect in my meditation that I greeted him with a big smile.

Everything checked out A-OK and I was out of there quickly. I spent the rest of the morning still feeling the Reiki energy and I seemed to greet everyone with a smile, and even caught others smiling back. I must say that I am not fond of Doctor appointments but this one seemed to have a lesson there waiting for me......

Thursday

2010-07-08T16:50:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

I am finding dimes all around the house as a gentle reminder of my Grandmother who passed away two years ago this month. As my father leaves pennys my Grandmother leaves dimes. This morning my Mom called and shared a dream that she had about my Grandmother which made me smile.

It was my Grandmother who taught me so many wonderful things that I still enjoy in my life so it is always fun to find the dimes as a remembrance of her. It is funny the way the other side can get in touch with us either trough dreams or little gifts that they leave. Do we really know how much we are really loved?

Monday evening.....

2010-07-05T18:50:00.000-07:00

I must say that since Friday I have felt this beautiful energy that moves through the bones and out past the skin as it pours out into the energy field surrounding the body. It is a massage of waves pulsing out of the ground. I catch myself being distracted by this lovely energy when I pause through out the day.

So beautiful is this energy that it seems to open up the heart and I find myself sending love out randomly to anyone or anything. The magnitude of the colors in the day are a feast for the soul. My kids laugh at me as I am talking to them and suddenly become distracted by the brilliance of light and color in and around everything that I see.

Dreams and morning twilight are begining to become a classroom as I am in that state for there is much to see and learn. Then during the day what was once fragments are now becoming whole pictures with interaction within relationships. There seems to be no judgement only observation and appreciation of fellow travelers following their own path.

Beauty is all around even in the vibration of the air. Today I could feel how magnificent it is to just be and caught myself smiling at so many who crossed my path... Isn't life truly amazing...

Friday

2010-07-02T05:01:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

There seemed to be a lot of activity going on in the house with shadows and light moving in and out of sight. One of my children got a visit from a ghost who appeared in their dream. What was funny was that the ghost told them that they had come to get a look at us. Apparently they were enjoying the conversation and wanted to be contacted to..

On my end... I have been waking up the last few days in and between dreams knowing that I am busy in them but not remembering them when I am fully awake. This morning however I was able to recall my dream when I was in twilight. When I did I found that I had been a taught a method of understanding something that I had been puzzling me the day before when I was working on my studies. The lesson made everything much more clearer to understand when I looked at it from that perspective.

One thing that I can say to is that upon waking up I understood that the vibration of the earth had changed to a much higher frequency. Something happened over night.... Even upon being fully awake with coffee I can feel the energy moving right down inside the bones expanding through the body and out through the skin as it surrounds my energy field. It is a wonderful feeling of peace and tingling all over the body and soul......

Wed.

2010-06-30T12:47:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

Wow, yesterday I took a tirp to see a Reiki Client in Terrell which is an hour drive from where we live. I left at 8am and moved through some of the traffic with ease but the best part was that it was raining and the sky lit up. The clouds rolled in like something you see in a movie with an ocean and I was able to get a front row seat on the highway.

I had a nice hot cup of coffee and turned on some beautiful music and enjoyed the show. As I road on down the highway. I could see the most beautiful greens, blues, whites, purples and gray colors as the morning made everything look in a fairy land.

My heart started to swell with the emotion from the colors and this love burst out which spilled over into my soul covering me and filling me up. I felt so full almost like eating too much at a meal after Thanksgiving. The energy that moved through me opened my eyes so that I could see the energy surrounding everything. It was so beautiful that I caught myself crying releasing some of what I held within.

My time with my client was wonderful and the drive was a repeat of the morning drive. Wow, there is sooooo much love out there and such an amazing world.

This morning when I got up for coffee. I sat in the living room and felt this wonderful tingling sensation all over me. I could even feel it outside of me and around me. Wow, I thought how cool is this that I can feel this. Then I caught a glimps of the white smoke as I looked down toward my lap as it disappeared moving through me. Oh..... I was shearing energy with someone in the room. I should have known... I thought.

It stayed for a little longer then left.... I don't know who it was and realized that it had happened only Sat then again today... I wonder if I brought someone home?

Sunday evening..

2010-06-27T18:08:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

Interesting weekend, I must say.... Sat I went with my family to visit another person in our family and we were sitting in the living room when I noticed that someone passed though me. I was sitting in the big easy chair just visiting when I got this weird feeling of something going through me and caught the last of it with my eyes as I realized what was happening. I thought I knew who it was but when I recalled the incident I did not recognise the energy.

Saturday was the lunar eclipse and I thought it might be good to ask for clarity on a relationship in my life which has been making me question so I asked for clarity before I went to sleep. Nothing came in my dream until my husband woke up and I woke up. As I was going back to sleep I got a movie of past events of my life and conversations that I would have never put two and two together. When I added two and two it equalled four and I had my answer.

Sunday I went back to the little church that I talked to the Pastor last Sunday. This time one of my teachers came for a visit. What was fun was that she saw the light and colors around the Pastor. She also saw the angels where the choir sits. I had seen this to and was excited that she had the same experience. I know that I have wondered why with only ten in the choir why it sounded like a hundred voices..."Da"! You can feel the emotion move through the room......It is just different. Hard to explain and must be experienced.

In a church of only a hundred and four something is happening there you can feel it in the church as it seems to be in the air.... Two years ago there were only thirty to fifty people and was dying. Now?

Thursday

2010-06-24T10:32:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

Tuesday I got to go on an overnight trip with a good friend to pick up her daughter in Oklahoma who was flying in from a mission trip from Costa Rika. We drove up there enjoying our visit and picked her up sometime after nine that night. It was fun listening to her stories and later I fell into a hard sleep leaving her up talking to her mother bubbling with enthusiasm over the trip.

The hotel bed was comfortable and sleep came fast but the dream that came caught me a little off guard. I dreamed about my home and my family. I dreamed about the five pets and how amazing my life was then as I was becoming comfortable with my life in my dream I dreamed that one of my pets died. Now that does not sound too bad as it could have been my husband or children but the loss of my pet was so sad. I kept looking for the cat that passed away and the loss was huge.

If you know that I can see and talk to ghost and even have pets who have passed on hang out in the house then this reaction might seem a little strange. When I woke up I called and asked my daughter how the cat was and she said just fine. Even upon return the cat was just as snippy as ever.

It was not until this morning after a goodnight sleep that the thought entered into my head that I had not lost the cat but had lost something close to me. I still don't know what it is and I am making note of this time as I have in the past and waiting for something to up later that will mark date knowing that I was warned.

Also, to make note this Sat is a lunar eclipse time to be letting old things go so that we can move on.....

Monday

2010-06-21T18:45:00.000-07:00

Dear Diray,

Sunday I had the amazing opportunity to meet with a local Pastor and visit being able to talk about what I do. It was quite amazing to me as to how welcome I was received. I must admit I had some doubts and fears brought on by my own past experiences with churches and it was because of this I wanted to back out but listening to the sermon that morning I heard some things that encouraged me to speak...

A teacher once told me that to be enlightened is not to have a life without conflict but to be aware when you have the conflict and to learn during the experience. I am by no way enlightened but I do try to allow myself to experience what I am feeling and to learn form it. It turns out that the only conflict was in me as the Pastor was very receptive. He even shared some personal experiences of his own.

Today was quite ordinary well, I guess you have to define what ordinary is... There was someone in the dining room poping their head out for a few seconds just enough to see what is going on in our living room. I was standing behind the couch and was facing that direction so that I got to see them. My family were all sitting in the living room and I am now to where I don't mention it unless it is really unusual.

This reminds me of the pennies that I find from my father. He passed away a year ago February. After his death I received a message for my mother which I had no clue what it meant. I called my mother in California and relayed the message and she started to cry. She had wondered about something after his death and he had come to let her know it was OK. The message had to do with something about pennies.

After that she begin to find pennies as a sign when she felt him around her and when she told me what it meant I soon started to find pennies. That had never happened before and they would show up in the strangest places. My Father is still leaving pennies for me and they pop up at just the right moment. They always seem to be on time for a special event or when I need to hold my tongue as I can hear my dad telling me how powerful words are. There are those occasions that I do find pennies and know it is a penny from Heaven and he is just saying Hi.

It has been nice to know that we are thought of on the other side......

Sat

2010-06-19T09:23:00.000-07:00

I was honoured to meet this man who confessed that they had found peace through forgiveness. What struck me about this person was the question they asked. Has anyone in your life ever told you that you had to kill someone? Now that may sound strange but he was drafted at the age of 19 in a war. I realized then that one of the biggest sacrifices in some of our young soldiers is a wounding of their soul as they had to forget all they were taught and go out and kill.

Sometimes to look at something from a different perspective changes the way we see things. As he talked he said that the anger of being made to kill and anger at himself from killing was so great. But the beauty of it all was the peace that he found in forgiveness and his relationship with the Creator. Through his connection he was able to forgive himself first and then worked his way through the pain and anger. When you listened to the story you could hear a peace that he carried and an even greater wisdom.

One of my friends from the circle daughter was in Hospice these past few weeks. She passed away this Wed. My husband was at a memorial for his Uncle and I went to the funeral for my friend's daughter today. In all of this the relationships we have with one another are so precious.

Tuesday

2010-06-16T13:11:00.000-07:00

Tuesday was interesting as I spent the day doing errands with my daughter. She shared with me when we were driving around that she had seen light orbs in my bedroom a few days ago. She had seen them at the foot of my bed as she walked into the room then they exited out of the room into the kitchen and disappeared.

Orbs or lights have been seen by both of us in the kitchen so that was not uncommon. What was strange is that they were in my bedroom at the foot of the bed and flashing and left when she came in the room. The orbs are not at all scary or have any feel of being negative in our perceptions so we just live with them in the house.

Monday evening....

2010-06-14T17:46:00.000-07:00

Really busy weekend and very interesting.... We were invited to a home of a person who was experiencing a lot of activity and was in the past being physically attacked. Not only did they have ghost but the dark entities which the person called a demon. Actually there were two in the home along with other entities on different levels.

The owner of the home had brought in people to clear the home but it only stirred up activity and caused a great deal of back lash on the owner. One group did manage to close the portal and then banish the demon out of the home but what we gathered was that it was still trapped on this side of the portal and only banished from the house.

The concern of the home owner was that any tampering of the house would cause an opening into the home allowing it to reek havoc on the home owner in revenge so we were asked to only observe. We did however find a lot of activity in the home without it but there was also still a large presence of evil lurking in the home.

That evening we moved around the home observing and all of us felt a presence of being watched and it was not happy. It did seem to clear off within an hour of us noticing it and then it felt like it never existed. Our host was very gracious in allowing us to tour the home and we kept our word not to do anything and to only observe. I must say it was hard not to help. I don't know how our host lives like that because you felt like you were on guard all the time.

The home owner did explain that this was nothing to what they had endured with the other presence in the home. They felt that even with all the activity it was liveable.

I had no trouble on the drive back home and felt confident in knowing that I know how to protect myself before I go on any rescue and how to cleanse myself. Getting out of the car and walking into the house I noticed what looked like energy trying to appear. I was so tired from the visit and acknowledged the ghost or tag-a-long but told them to stay outside the house. I was too tired to talk to them. It was 1:30am...

The next day after sleeping in I realized that I should have helped the ghost who followed me home to cross or at least listened to see what they had to say. I am making a note that the ghost was not attached to me but to my car and that is how it followed me home so I am not sure without communicating with the ghost if it was in the home, outside or just in the neighbourhood.

Today I had jury duty and was one in forty called for a trial for questioning. The lady Lawyer had a man following her around in the energy form. You could see the head and shoulders of a man just outside of her own energy field. His broad shoulders and bulky build gave him away but when when she mentioned a story about her father who had passed. He got brighter....... I am guessing it was her father...

Out of the forty 28 of us were released to go home and I was happy to go home and join my family. I worked with my Qi Gong teacher in the early evening and enjoyed the relaxing meditation of being familiar with our energy forms.

Thursday

2010-06-11T05:04:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

Yesterday we had to be at the University for our second day of orientation at seven in the morning so we we left the house early. On the car ride over I took the time to Reiki and put protection around myself since Steve was driving and I didn't want any more house guest. As we drove I could feel this tingling in and around my body as the vibration moved to a higher level for protection.

We got to the University in time and was able to meet with our group for breakfast and continued our day with our classes on how the university runs. It was about 11 during the next class session that I noticed that one of the professors who got up to speak a very soft spoken fellow had something special with the white light that surrounded his body. A blue turquoise light in neon traced around his body and lit up mixing with the white light in his energy field. Then a yellow light shown out of the crown of his head mixing in with blue and shown three feet above his head.

I took a tipple take and was entranced with the beauty of light shining all around this man. As I looked at him and at the light there was nothing to indicate that this man was any different from anyone else in the room except for the light that emanated from his whole being. It was beautiful. I knew then that this was someone very special and that the students who had him as their Professor were lucky to be taught by him.

As I sat there watching the man speak I noticed to the right of the room a white smoke slowly moving across the room a few inches above the heads of the audience making its way toward the speaker but it dissipated a few rows toward the front. It looked like when someone blows a large puff of smoke from a cigarette only no one was smoking since it is not allowed in the buildings. Also the size of it covered several people at a time as it moved across the room.

In my experience when I have seen this I knew it to indicate the presence of a ghost but there was more than one in this case. They dismissed us for lunch and we were later met as a large group in the auditorium for more speakers and to hear from the University administrators. Each speaker had the light emanating from them but nothing like the Professer before the lunch break. As I looked around the room I could see a golden white light and make out the outline of a head and shoulders of a small child with its arms wrapped around a woman a few rows in front of me.

A few rows on my left were two couples sitting in two different rows but close to each other. And since it was a parent orientation to the university I guessed they were sitting with their spouses but the man in one couple and the women in the other couple seemed to be very connected with a wall of energy that they shared even though the way that they were sitting they looked like they didn't know each other. I realized then that it was none of my business and averted my eyes....I have gotten into trouble in the past by seeing someone else's business so I moved on trying to concentrate listening to the speaker and grounding myself back into a more physical reality.

The day continued on with seeing the other side interact with the living and I watched in fascination trying not to stare and be rude. Lucky for us we got out early and were able to enjoy the rest of our evening. I have not heard from the chain smoker in the car that came home with us the other day so I am guessing he decided to move on. Today should be quiet so I am resting from all the activity from the last two days and need to catch up on my house work.

Wed Night

2010-06-09T20:31:00.001-07:00

You would think that by now I would have a clue when I have picked up someone in my energy field who has decided to follow me around. All I can say is that I was really enjoying the day at an orientation at a local university with my family with about five hundred other people there with their families. I must admit that sometimes it is fun to just enjoy that special time running around and being with others not thinking about the rest of the world.

It was later in the day that I received a message from my friend who is trying to set up the Spirit Rescue so I called her back in between lectures but the cell phone kept dropping in and out. It didn't seem to matter where I was on the campus I was only getting bits and pieces of the conversation and finely had to ask to try again later in the evening. It always seemed to drop out when we were saying something important.

As my husband and I drove home I was telling him about the strange phone connection not thinking anything except that it was a bad connection. It was in the middle of the conversation that I began to smell this strong smell of a cigarette. The car reeked of smoke and neither of us smoke. I asked if he smelled it and he didn't seem to know what I was talking about. Finely I realized that he didn't smell it and as this thought was running through my head the smell was gone.

This had happened before when I picked up a ghost a year ago just by walking around at a fair. But how could that happen since I put a wall of protection around myself now when I go out in a crowd so it doesn't happen again? Then it hit! I was so excited about the day that I forgot to do it. So now I guess I will wait to see what they want and as it is late I will address it later on. I hope....

Wednesday June 9, 2010

2010-06-09T05:00:00.000-07:00

During lunch yesterday with a dear friend, I received a frantic phone call from anther friend who was in touch with a person here in town who owns a house that is having a lot of activity. What was even more interesting was that they were being physically attacked in the home such as being scratched and slapped.

Apparently, they had had groups over to the home to clear it, but with no success. In fact the clearings seemed to cause more agitation to the situation and the owner was reluctant to have anyone else come out to clear it. Through this experience the owner had become a believer in the paranormal and had set up their own team with electronic devices.

My friend, who is also on our "Spirit Rescue" Team, asked if she could arrange for just three of us to go out and do a clearing for the owner. The three being me, Paula, our teacher, and she. Apparently, people have been scared away after doing such work in the home and she thought it would be best if it was only us just in case we were attacked.

I had a brief flashback to about a little over a year ago, when I went to a friend's home for a class and I was the only one who showed up, so my friend and I got into a great conversation over ghosts and hauntings. My friend confessed that they had been physically attacked in their home and were afraid of the entity that was terrorising them.

Needless to say, I had had dealings with ghosts and some entities, so I agreed to help her clear the home. We decided to start right then and I did a brief prayer to bring in the light and God's energy for protection for the work when the house started to creek and noises, that sounded like things hitting the wall, could be heard. We even heard sounds that seemed like things falling off the book shelves and sounds of scratching on the wall.

I remember our fear turned the room cold, but the phone rang, causing us to leave the home to rescue her husband who was having car trouble. Later in the evening, I drove home and was half way there when I noticed lightning. I love storms, so while I was sitting at the next stoplight, I started to search for where it was coming from. Then I saw it again, only this time I noticed that it was not lightening, but streaks of light that looked like lightening and were vertical, traveling down the power line next to the road I was traveling.

When I accelerated, It looked like the streaks of electrical current were following my car down the street toward the highway for the next five miles in what looked like burst of vertical flashes of lightening. I seemed to have lost it when I merged on the highway, to my relief, and drove the next four miles calming myself down and letting go of some of my fear.

But it caught up with me after turning on the three mile road to my street after exiting the highway, following me all the way home. Terrified, I started to do Reiki and praying for God's protection all around my home before driving up to it. I also covered my family and animals praying, when it dawned on me that this entity could also access my energy and anyone I was connected to, so I started to cover my family and friends.

Terrified, I managed to get out of the car and walk into the house fully alert and finding nothing, so I took my bath and slipped into bed with my sleeping husband. Everyone was sound asleep.

In the middle of the night I woke up with this feeling of something very angry looming over me, just staring at me with massive hatred. Then I saw it for the first time, this large dark shadow in the darkness of the room standing right next to my side of the bed. Lucky for me, I knew I had covered my bed, the kid's beds, and the animals, so I knew it could not mess with us. I like my sleep more than anything, and so with that knowledge of the protection I woke up agitated, blew it off with my hand, and rolled over thinking it would have to wait until I was awake, and went back to sleep.

The next morning when I woke up, it was gone. I checked the whole house and found no trace of it. During the day, I checked again making sure it had left and found nothing. Later on, when I started to take classes with my teacher, I learned that when there is No fear then they have nothing to feed on or to control. The protection of prayer, reiki, and my stinginess with my sleep had saved us from an attack.

A lot had happened since that night, and I now have the training and experience under my belt from other rescues. I told my friend to set it up and we would come. Hanging up, I related the story to my friend, the one who's home I was at that night with the lightening, and had been peaceful since the "Spirit Rescue" team had cleared her home with a huge success. Driving home afterwards, I couldn't help thinking how much water had flowed under the bridge in the past year.

Tuesday

2010-06-08T05:33:00.000-07:00

A quiet day yesterday until I got a phone call from a dear friend who is learning about being out in the world with their gifts and feeling persecuted by others. I was told once by a teacher that, "if there were no ripples in the water then it meant that you were stagnate. It is the movement in the ripples that we learn the greater lessons in life and that by being stagnate we are frozen in our own fears."

Later on I ran into someone else who is quite gifted in seeing and terrified that his community might find out as he is afraid of persecution. Talking to them both yesterday I see such a contrast in life choices.

This morning as I was waking up I thought about how strange that I was seeing both of my friends on both sides of the spectrum going through their own struggles and learning to cope with their decisions. I also know to that in my own life that I was being shown something as I was seeing the whole picture and that there is no such thing as quintessences.

Monday

2010-06-07T08:06:00.001-07:00

It turned out to be a very busy weekend. Saturday was filled with graduation ceremonies and family so there was no time to experience the environment around us. It was later in the evening, after coming home from a movie with my daughter which was part of the celebration, that I found myself having a panic attack.

Climbing into bed and starting to fall asleep, I started to think of the hole in the bottom of the ocean. I could not stop my thoughts from seeing all the damage that was happening as I was entering into sleep. Sleep came in fits and finally, around three in the morning, I heard a soft voice whisper in twilight to email my teacher in Hawaii the next morning and see if we could not Grok the earth and with that, I fell into a peaceful rest.

Early Sunday morning, I sent out an email and was delighted to have a response before noon. It was a message from my teacher that on Saturday they had gathered together in a meditation all over in an effort to send healing to that part of the earth. How wonderful is that! I had to wonder if I had picked some of that up and had created a panic attack? All I know is that I just felt there needed be something done on our end. Needless to say I was delighted to hear that they had done that.

I was excited to get ready for the afternoon as I was meeting with some of the other members on the "Spirit Rescue" team. We were invited to go to Wetherford, TX by someone who was experiencing some activity in their home.

There were nine of us who showed up plus our teacher, Paula, who leads the team. As we got there, we were able to move through the home and the property around the house, each scanning and seeing if we could pick up or see any ghost, spirits or entities. Also, we searched for portals that might have been opened. I must say that I really enjoy working with this group as they are each so amazingly gifted.

None of us on the team work with electronic devices and use only our gifts to communicate with the spirits or ghosts who are trapped or causing disturbances on this side. One did bring a video camera though, to record the event and how we do things.

As we moved around, we broke up in small groups to scan the area. Some were able to see people from the past still caught in their daily activities as if they were still living on this earth. Others who were more empathic were picking up the feelings and emotions of the ghost while still others were hearing them speak. Then there are those who just have a true sense of knowing what had happened and what going on with the ghost.

As we wrapped up, the Team met in the living room with the owners and discussed what the events of the afternoon. It was wonderful to have the validation when the owners shared the history of the property and home. I was quite delighted to hear one of the newer members talk to the owners about the difference between a ghost and Spirit.

A ghost is someone who is trapped, lost, attached, or can't see the light to pass on. They are most likely still bearing the scars, emotions, and body they had here on earth. That includes illness, lost limbs or sickness etc.... A spirit on the other hand has crossed to the other side and has joined the light with the option to come back and visit with complete healing on all levels. They have the ability to change their appearance or help those who are trapped in between.

Then there are the portals that have been opened, leading to other dimensions. Some of these are natural and welcome. While there are others that have been opened by those doing things that they don't understand. Those portals that are opened by accident or on purpose allow the dark entities and other beings form other dimensions to enter and often cause lots of problems, terrorising the people and ghosts who are trapped sharing living space. The last two homes we went to, we were called in to help by the owners who had encountered such activities and wanted us to close them down.

I am happy to say that there were no such portals or dark entities on the premises. What the team did find were spirits who were from other time periods coming to show off the living space that they used to own when they were here on earth. Others did encounter ghosts who did not want to be crossed and told the team to go away. They were happy exactly where they were and as long as the owners were OK with them being there, we did not try to cross them.

There was one in particular that was quite miserable and in distress, and a few members of the team were able to call for help on the other side and help talk the ghost through into the light. Nicely done! Free will is very important and if a ghost does not want to cross you can coax and call in a team of angels, but they have the choice to stay.....

All in all, the team worked very well together, and I will miss meeting with them later on this week as I have family matters to attend to, so I will have to hear from some of the members what they will discuss....

Side note

2010-06-04T19:01:00.001-07:00

This morning I woke up and wrote my entry for the day. When I finished, the kids were in the living room watching TV. Next to the couch on the left, was what looked like a tall large gas vapour. I asked my daughter if she could see it as my son had just walked out of the room on the other side, but she was ignoring me. So I went over and stuck my hand through it moving it back and fourth.

Strange, I thought as it seemed like someone was trying to materialise...I thought nothing more about it until later this evening when my brother-in-law called to tell us that Steve's Uncle had passed away.

Friday 4,

2010-06-04T05:43:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

Last night, as I was sitting in the living room with my family, there seemed to be a lot of flashes of light moving through the room along with white mist that would appear and disappear as we tried to watch the TV. When I went into the bathroom to take a bath I walked through a white mist entering into the room. Again, mist and what looked like gas vapors were appearing and disappearing as I tried to bathe. Exhausted, I ignored them.

It seems strange that there was a lot of activity going on in the house, I thought as I was finely able to go to sleep. I closed my eyes feeling this large dark heavy presence in the room. Too tired to mess with it, I asked it to leave and went to sleep. Sleep came fast and very peacefully without any disturbance.

This morning as I make coffee and have breakfast with my dear husband, there seems to be no activity. I am wondering what stirred them up or if it had anything to do with the presence in my room. I guess I will just have to wait and see......

Mid afternoon this Sunday, the "Spirit Rescue" team is scheduled to go to Weatherford to do another rescue. I am wondering if I had an early visit? That happens more than people realize. Often a visit like that can be an early warning not to come and interfere from whatever entity is keeping control over things in that space. It will be interesting to see what happens in the next few days.

Thursday June 3,

2010-06-03T04:22:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

Yesterday, I had a friend who was visiting and they saw one of my cats who jumped on my bed and sat next to them. I always love it when I don't tell them about them and friends have their own experience.

Allie was my little orange cat that passed away a year ago from an illness after living a full life of 19 years. I had her as a small kitten and she slept with me. Buddy, the other cat who passed away a few years earlier, also hangs out and you may find them running around the house playing. You see a little gray shadow of a cat jumping up on things or hiding behind a chair.

The funny thing about Allie is that the night after she died, she walked on me and sat on me like she used to do, startling me out of my sleep. I was completely aware that she was sitting on me. After she woke me up and let me know that she was there, she jumped off and walked across the bed and was gone. She repeated this routine for a few weeks, which helped ease my grief each time she came to visit. Then the visits started to occur during the day as we saw her running around the house.

Last February, I was in India with my husband and sound asleep, when I was again startled out of sleep by the little light feet of a cat walking on me. When I awoke I could still feel the pressure of the weight of a cat on me as it made it's way toward my head. Then I realized that the family that we were visiting had no pets.

The windows all had screens and were locked up for the night. I turned my head over and could see my husband fast asleep next to me. I could feel the pressure of the weight of a small cat and I realized that it was Allie. She had found me half way around the world and had come to say hi. I smiled and found myself grateful that she had come for a visit so far away from home and right as I thought that, she jumped off and landed next to me and was gone.

I have heard people say that they don't think that animals have souls and also that if they do, they are not allowed in heaven. I know that is not true and that animals do have souls and are allowed in heaven.

But I must admit that it is a special gift when an animal will wait for us so that we can all cross into the light together. They are as loyal waiting for us on the other side as they were in this side.

I always have to smile when we have company who have no clue about the two cats that hang out with us and they have an experience. Even our cats and dogs walk widely around the other two when they are playing and running through the house.

June 1

2010-06-01T19:20:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

Today I had an appointment in Terrell and was driving this morning from Arlington listening to one of my books on my I-pod. I was about 30 minutes into the drive when I realized I could hear someone singing. Since it was highway and we were moving along the road at regular speed without a lot of cars, I thought it rather odd. I turned off the I-pod and checked to see if the radio was on. No, luck. it was not on and there was still singing coming in from somewhere.

I drove on towards my destination hearing a women singing solo, and every once in a while, harmonising with other vocals. The voice was beautiful and I found myself listening just to the tones of her voice. The song was something very old like what you might hear in an old church on "Little House on the Prairie." After about ten minute,s it faded away and I could not pick it up with my ears.

What was strange, was that I was not sure if I was hearing with my actual ears. Later today, I searched my car for a radio or another I-pod and found nothing.

May 31

2010-05-31T16:13:00.000-07:00

The special gift of seeing or sensing the other side is quite common. What most people don't realize is that we are dealing with a lot more gifted children and adults who have the gift of seeing and have no where to turn. If they have no support, then they may feel afraid of the gift and feel that they are cursed, but the truth is that once you understand the gift and how it works, you quickly fall into a beautiful network of those individuals who help both those on this side and the other side of the Veil.

I have been very blessed to be a part of a Spirit Rescue team that works only by referral and helps those who are having hauntings in their homes and need to clear the space. We have only ourselves, no equipment, and we connect and help move the spirit energy on to the light where it needs to go. We communicate with the spirits who are confused and those who refuse to leave, listening to their stories and helping them move on.

Also, we move the entities, that many have been reported to cause physical attacks, back into the portals which we close so that they can not terrorise people. Most of these entities are what most religions would call demons or the boogie man in other references. They are not good and you can feel their anger and hatred toward human kind. Often they imprison ghosts so that they can't move on toward the light, causing great fear and restlessness in between which many will feel on this side.

I have found the work both amazing and touching as I have connected and communicated with these lost souls, each with their unique story and being what we all are; human, even in death.